Thursday, June 30, 2005
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today to sum up...
was a fucked up day.. yeah
always n forever..
stress is killing me
i m nt done with the project..
i got another one crashing one me
this time.. tis a whole fucking new project
juz me myself n i alone..
n the best of it.. its one of our biggest client?
i have no idea why esmond wants me to do it..
of all people...me..
maybe i shldn't have gave him the idea... of his previous
project... fucking act smart..
but calvin says dat its gd in a way.. lol..
nw i haf to answer to 2 people...
kath alrdy stalked me big time..
till i dun dare to bring my phone out for lunch..
nw esmond... gawd... i haf.. like 3 pieces of wrk pending..
n esmond expect ideas.. tml morning..
but its ok.. i got them out alrdy..
took a walk back fr the mrt.. hoping to brainstorm some ideas
i glad i did.. at least got some ideas out...
juz hoped i dun screw up... nor see those damn client..
BUT I WOULD LIKE TO SEE HER.. [SHEENA] SO I CAN SLICE HER UP
PIECES BY PIECES.. N COOK IT FOR HER TO EAT.. i wished she knows i haf
a damn blog.. cos for the past entries.. i leave my 'quotes' especially for her
fr my MANSON COLLECTIONS!!.. guess sean knows that i will wack that
sheena badly.. if i ever see her...
cos today at the office.. i juz slamed the chair n all n walked out..
for a smoke.. oh well... thats me..
thats all for the bad part..
now to the better part...
Diana.. caught.. AVIES.. BIOING ME..while i was standing next
to the printer.. checking my prints..LOL
diana is so funny.. she said so loudly..
'DUN KEI KEI PRETEND TO FLIP UR PRINT UPS LOR.. BIO CHRIS BIO OPENLY LAR'
wahaha i was.. like.. erm... huh.. while checking my prints...
den avies.. face was sooooo RED... haha so cute... so me being an arsehole..
i walked over her table n stand right in front of her.. to check my prints..
lol den i said.. like that den can bio clearer.. lol
n avies.. took her that pink princess cushion n cover her face.. lol
but i tink i was quite mean lar...
but the funniest part was when kennie.. say..
'wah Diana can say avies bioing.. if she nvr bio chris how she noe avies bioing chris?' haha.. kennie always so ultimate.. one.. den diana.. also diam liaoz..
but oh well lucky it happens early.. very few ppl in the office.. if nt..
i duno where to put my face.. lol...
they are really very full of nonsense one sia.. lol
i tink today entry is so damn long.. shall stop here..
a long day ahead for tml.. gotta be prepared...
oh my mum bought me a men shirt.. which is pink/purple?
its nice lar.. lol i love it alot.. my mum is so nice..
she say its for my results lol.. so happy sia..
she bought an yellow one also. but she say see if my dad wants
if nt it be mine!! i tried the yellow one.. i dun look
sucky in yellow anymore!!!lol
i miss pei sia...
Am i really that CUTE?....WAHAHAHAHA...
i wonder wats happening
i wonder wat happen
i wonder how things become wat they are
i wonder how long it takes to understand
i juz wonder when will i die
| The.Goodbye. 6/30/2005 12:27:00 AM |
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Wednesday, June 29, 2005
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I M SO BLOODY HAPPY!!!
I GOT MY RESULTS!
I M OFFICALLY GRAD!!
wahaha i m actually very please
and happy with my results tho'
its nt a high GPA.. but damn did i
improved alot!! even higher den the
sec fren of mine who used to always tell me
her marks. quite high in class.. one..
lol so happy..
haha really sia.. can't stop smiling..
=) =) =) =) =)
tml fucking stress.
i juz kena slapped to finish up the
whole damn bloody project alone..
like a huge big load on my shoulders
n its stressing me big time..
any mistake i m so screwed..
deadlines aren't dead..
but deadly..
i have something to hold on for real..
do u?
| The.Goodbye. 6/29/2005 12:29:00 AM |
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Tuesday, June 28, 2005
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today was so fucked up
i feel like kath is stalking me the whole day...
nabei.. its such a fucking long day today...
fuck sia..
really sia..
i would love to get my hands on her
and torture her slowly..
n leave her to die.. slowly n painfully..
mutharfucker... really sia
my hatred for her is so huge nw..
she is juz heng i nvr see her bfore..
if nt.. i make sure u she die
nabei....
nw to the better.. part of today
went to some japanese resturant to haf lunch..
didn't take note of the damn name...
ordered.. some superhot ramen...
lol kennie vannesa diana n calvin.. like
see me ate until.. so hot..
lol whahaha.. cos calvin ate ramen.. but
only 2 chilli.. he alrdy say hot..
i ordered 4.. chilli.. lol
wahaha... but shiok lar.. hot is hot lar..
lol i even finish up the damn soup...
wahaha...
today.. diana.. really look.. hot.. lor..
wah.. didn't know her butt so small..
lol.. really sia... really hot.. lor...
not those skimpy skimpy wear.. i dun like..
lol but really.. ar... very... OMG... like wana.. u noe..
bite.. wahaha wat a word to use... LOL
den avies keep saying me.. esp at the lunch...
but ok lar.. befoe she left.. she give me a hug fr behind..[so nice cum gave me a big shock]
n she gave me massage.. on my shoulders.. lol.. wahaha
she very nice lar.. lol so cute one..
tink gona meet syl n meilian later..
i feel so hungry.. duno if i shld eat or nt...
Syl.. told me to listen to Perfect10...
the song is for me...
Cake - I will survive..
den she replied me n say..
NO is YOU'VE SURVIVED!!!
whaha
alrite..
I SURVIVED!! BUT DID U?
| The.Goodbye. 6/28/2005 08:23:00 PM |
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Monday, June 27, 2005
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today is ultimate STRESS...
imagine.. someone standing cum sitting bside u
watching u do ur wrk...
stress... sia...
rushing n all.. fuck sia..
nabei chao chee bye..
fuck lar...
wth really man dun let me fucking hell see u
if nt i m so gona give u a gd wacking
nabei... fucker sia..
its nw.. finished for the moment...
but i m still pissed off..
even tho' i m wasting my time away nw
n slacking cum relaxing cum slowly doing..
i still feel fucking piss lar..
UNTIl.. avies.. yes.. ...
say i m very cute...
lol n nw i tanned i look so much better.. lol
more shuai... and cute...
wahahaha.. she is always so swt..
but i tot juz nw she angry with me cos i
can't join them for lunch... lol
oh well...
went to violet n calvin instead...
nw.. i m so argh.. slpy...
today i need a gd rest.. shld stop my going oout everyday shit...
give my body the rite kind of rest n respect..
alrite.. off to wat i haf started
| The.Goodbye. 6/27/2005 04:56:00 PM |
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oh man.. i m so fucking tired
slpt at 4+am yesterday
was toking to meilian on the phone
at first.. i guess i was too quiet...
and sound too sad
lol so we end up msn-ing
can't slp.. yesterday tho' i m so tired..
hai.. thanks meilian for toking to me..
n saying things that i need to hear
for me to get on
so fucking stress nwadays..
haha glad u understand how its like.. lol
n yeah we will get through this together!!!
u be alrite so will i...
hope our weekends plans will start this week or next aye...
peace!.. oh yah clear ur com space lar..
send songs so slow.. LOL...
ahaha n dun worry lar..
i wun turn satanic.. even if i do.. nt those..
damn entu one lar.. say until u disown me as a friend
if i bcome satanic.... lol... kns..
oh yeah PEI MSG ME!!!!
tink nt long aft i fell aslp!!!
oh man u duno how happy i was when i saw her msg this morning!!
wah bro really miss so much.. so many things wana tell u
n crap with u.. oh man.. come back soon k.. lol
alrite.. back to the shits...
avies is so grouchy in the morning..
at least she asked if i wana eat some of her breakfast.. lol
alrite..
| The.Goodbye. 6/27/2005 09:30:00 AM |
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hmm ok today...
end up meeting..
Syl,adlina,jyen,val,nurul n jyen's Bisexual gal
no stunt kite flying today...
so sad sia.. its damn nice to play.. lor..
we end up slacking at whitesands..waiting for all to arrive...
went to magic wok...
the food sucks..
some CHINESE-thai 'resturant'
aft dat.. were playing.. soccer..cum.. frisbe
outside whitesands...lol
i didn't anticipate much.. due to
full body aches [sianz]
den we finally went to pasir ris beach..
like 8+ 9pm...
went to fisherman village to slack
nt for long..
time seem to pass slowly at dere...
guess everyone was tired..
we all went hm separately
but we managed to play SWING..haha
its years since i last sat on one..
den we went off
one thing nice to hear fr syl
was at least wat i m nw
sound nicer den a manager..
lol oh yah Congrats to SYL!!
PROMOTED TO MANAGER THIS COMMING MTH!!
powerpac max~!
alrite.. i m tired..
sending songs to that Meilian nw
she claims she is the star player..
for the neh[net] ball league? or tournment shit..
haha starfruits izit..lol
oh well i need to slp soon..
fucking tired.. gotta prepare for wats next to come
wats there to WOW abt.. when the thing u WOW on
is achieved with the help of somebody's *******?
its funny to see how one make themself believe
in things that are nt true..
nw tell me how great is ur life
| The.Goodbye. 6/27/2005 12:29:00 AM |
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Sunday, June 26, 2005
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....
change of plan again..
meeting jyren instead?
n of cos adlina..
wah.. seh..
hope no more changes..
i juz reach hm..
n i need to go off alrdy..
oooh val called
hope she can join us too..
alrite.. my body is breaking
| The.Goodbye. 6/26/2005 05:32:00 PM |
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.....
.......
syl called.. say kite flying is on...
or izit.. juz beach slacking?
i duno.. oh well
haha
dior is joining.. damn long nvr see her alrdy..
ok..i tink i got lots of bites.. or watever during canoeing..
damn painful...
oh yah.. Van msg me n ask me.. if i going for the 2 star
this comming july..
so gan cheong sia...
but nah.. dun tink ii haf the time.. nor is my skills
up to standard yet..
so yah we are gona practise together
and maybe join together haha
feel so stress.. so entu!
wahaha ok lar.. my fingers.. cum hands.. are
like aching too..
fuck
you don't deserve wat you didn't earn fr urself
| The.Goodbye. 6/26/2005 03:33:00 PM |
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wat a day..
finally its almost done
the kite flying is off
due to Meilian.. netball match..
and charissa feeling sick
maybe its God telling me to rest my body..
i can hardly walk properly...
fucking tired..
| The.Goodbye. 6/26/2005 03:25:00 PM |
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didn't meet up with cissa veron n val
veron finished wrk at 10..
by the time..
meilian alrdy called n ask me if i wana
meet up
so yah..
anyway val went fishing at punggol park?
so i meet Meilian at my house the bustop
den went down tam to meet jyren
slack for awhile..
i m really exhausted..
i duno..
headache...
ache-y eyes...
i tink i m abt to break..
tot i could haf a gd rest tml..
but i can't
juz hope.. tml i be able to make it
to meet Meilian and Syl..
STUNT KITE FLYING!!!
ultimate...
ok tink i m gona ZzzzZzZz soon..
can barely keep my eyes open
i think i need a haircut soon
its nt easy to be me
| The.Goodbye. 6/26/2005 12:36:00 AM |
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Saturday, June 25, 2005
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alrite canoeing is Over..
got the cert alrdy
n i juz crumpled it..
oh well
i m so fucking tired..
this single kayak...
its so much more tough then the doubles...
but the capsize drill is are.. like easier..
nw is we capsize ourself...
nw i tink i kinda like to capsize.. quite fun.. wait for ppl
to rescue me.. wahaha juz dat ar...
Liyi.. tok quite awhile to save me....
LOL.. steering probs.. huiting was the assist..
wahaha i tink i like the rescue the most.. LOL
my legs are aching like fuck....
i can hardly lift them up...
i tink i m very accident prone too...
always.. get injured someway another...
this time.. i got this deep cut.. on my bloody thumb...
i can flip the flesh open.. n show.. the red meat..
den got lots of cuts on my fingers.. haha weird sia..
oh well.. tink i really very accident prone lar..
LOL..
this time round.. my fave n shoulders..
hurt.. alot..
its those peeled off part that hurts the most
i m defintely going for 2 star..
but nt so soon yet.. i guess
need more practising man
huiting dropped her wallet on
the bus.. lucky manage to get it back.. but
she needs to go bedok depot to get..
well lucky they found it..
well got exchanged a few no.
for future kayaking PARTNER!
gawd i m so fucking tired..
later meeting charisa.. veron... val..
hope i m still awake... i feel like slping...
kill me
| The.Goodbye. 6/25/2005 07:30:00 PM |
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i m so fucking tired....
fucking tired...
| The.Goodbye. 6/25/2005 09:16:00 AM |
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juz got hm nt long ago
n i m yawning away
today slacking was nt bad..
met up with veron first.. den the
2 elderly walking came
slacking at heeren spinelle[is dat how u spell it?]LoL
val told me that gio jeans dun go well with topshop shirt..
lol which in turns means bad dress sense... oh well
no she wasn't saying me..
i was kinda tired.. infact.. tired..lol
was tinking finally its the weekend rest...
but i juz realised..
this weekend i got no rest...
YeAh.. [fuck]
Pei.. left.. oh man...
so sad... lol..
no more crapping.. for at least aweek plus...
i feel so beat...
tired to the max..
but i m kinda satisfied
with wat i haf produce..
nvr noe i could haf done it..
i guess Pei nw u can have higher hopes
of my freehand n photoshop skill
LOL.. i feel like a mini Pro..LOL
once your back.. we start..
the plan!! ")
ok i m heading of to ZzZZZz
pray dat i can wake up...
tell me wat its like
tell me how it feels
tell me how u slp at nite
tell me wat was it you wanted
| The.Goodbye. 6/25/2005 01:51:00 AM |
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Friday, June 24, 2005
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FUCK OFF NABEI CHEE BYE
FUCK LAR
CHEE BYE
MOTHERFUCKER
WAT THE FUCK
PIECE OF SHIT
GO TO HELL
BURN IN HELL
MOTHERFUCKER
CHEE BYE LOR
WAT LAR
NABEI
KNN LOR
WAT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT LAR
CHANGE HERE N DERE
FUCK LAR
TINK VERY FUN IZIT..
NABEI DUN LET ME MOTHERFUCKING HELL
SEE U FUCKED UP FACE
KNN LAR
FUCKING WASTE OF MY BLOODY TIME
PIECE OF WORTHLESS SHIT
KISS MY ARSE
GO N LICK UR OWN FUCKING ARSE
NABEI CCB
FUCK LAR!
ok.. i feel so much better...
the only thing dat is keeping me sane the whole day
is marilyn manson's music
i noe its an irony..
so maybe dun be shock if i become satanic.. someday..
i tink somehow i m going crazy..
with all the things happening ard me
if one day i juz disappear..
pls be happy for me.. dat i finally get the courage
t o face God.. on judgment day
n ask me question abt wat i haf done...
i duno wat i m doing nw
i m tired and restless
yet all i do is making myself more tired n restless
i duno
i really duno wat i m doing
i made too many plans..
i duno if i can cope
but i will n i haf to
i set aims that i haf to achieve
n my wrking table is fucking messy
even tho' its damn big..
this is how.. stress up my wrk is
fuck it..
i m leaving..
off to meet veron charis n val later
piece of shits
i duno if i love or hate life
tell me..
wat is love n hate..
when they are separate
by the thinest line
its so contradicting
fuck it for nw
i need to relax
| The.Goodbye. 6/24/2005 07:36:00 PM |
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i had a weird dream...
abt ipod..
lol duno who use the same ipod as me..
so lame..
can't remember the rest.. tho'
i always can't remember my dream..
only a few..
esp the one.. the 2years plus ago
still fresh in my head..
but its the past..
wat i haf is nw n future
The past was just a waste of my time
nothing but lies, full of lies and
Bullshits
the past was juz a waste of my time
full of nothing but lies and bullshits
oh well..
i would haf been a great day to slp..
n lie in bed..
but i m nt...
fucking sianz..
Pei leaving...tonite..
so sad...
oh man i m alrdy missing her...LOL
MY BRO!!.. we no gay gay one
we MAN MAN ONE.. lol
really miss the craps n hanging out man
sianz.. i feel so tired...
oh well...
avies.. juz played with my hair again...........
gawd i m falling aslp...
| The.Goodbye. 6/24/2005 09:54:00 AM |
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ok.. another stress n fucking stressed day
was supposed to meet ron but didn't managed to
she had to finish wrk late
n i was supposed to be busy too
but oh well in the end i end up meeting
Meilian n Syl in town
ard 8+ 9
syl as usual shopping..
Meilian.. wat else?-- shopping
WAhaha.. lame lar..
went to arcade
syl played her aeroplane game
me n meilian played soccer!! 2-1
lol i 2 of cos..
wahaha lame lar..
next week ktv.. onz..
but muz tell me time n date earlier k
today was nice lar..
like i said..
lol
i m 'cute' to avies..
haha
she is cute too.. LOL
oh well
yah..
oh n Ron always call at the rite timing
in a way.. the first call was still alrite
the second one abit off lar.. den avies..
say i very funny n cute.. again.. lol
while toking on the phone..
oh well..
ron was complaining abt wrk n all..
lol n i gave her very gd suggestion
as wat she said ... LOL
on window n store display..
oh well wat can i say?..
i didn't study for nothing.. LOL
ok yah revamped my blog again..
nt bcos i m free..
but bcos of the blog having some
fucked up probs.. so i decided to
change it over..
oh well..
k i m fucking tired.. need to slp soon
nabei lar loser
| The.Goodbye. 6/24/2005 01:51:00 AM |
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Thursday, June 23, 2005
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my face is peeling like crazy
n guess.. wat..
i peeled it untill
my face bleed....
wah nice...
oh man.. so stress sia...
n avies keep walking pass me
looking at me so distracting..
| The.Goodbye. 6/23/2005 05:07:00 PM |
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wahaha avies is so nice..
say i very cute..
LOL damn tireed...
fucking hot...
damn man..
STRESS@@@!!!!@@@!!!
| The.Goodbye. 6/23/2005 01:26:00 PM |
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hmmm...
today another stressful day
violet.. is crazy...
from my back pull my t-shirt
n told calvin dat my back tattoo
damn nice....
hers is bigger den mine.. can when she showed me
Dragon somemore.. LOL
last time muz be chao ah lian... LOL
lol the evening was great...
as in yah saved quite a sum
thanks to seek 'aunty-ness' in her
me n pei finally SIGNED UP FOR MTKB
WAHAHAHAHAHA... oh well
so shiok...
so happy..
Wahaha.. can't wait for it to start..
So many things i wana do..
but i feel like i got no time...
but its ok.. at least.. i noe
i m achieving somethings in the end
lol .. wat a joke...
tml is gona be another stressful day
.. .. .. .. ..
i need to slp... i m so fucking tired
Since when wasn't i fucking tired?
LOL but its ok.. i m happy!!... LOL
MTKB!!!
best can.. dat Meilian is at china jump lor
den aftnn go tanning...
wah lau....
LOL eh REM AR the NEXT MTKB SESSION AR
by that time... U BETTER SAVE UP MONEY
but i still by that time.. i can lend u money...
hopefully!! den we can MTKB TOGETHER!
| The.Goodbye. 6/23/2005 12:55:00 AM |
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Wednesday, June 22, 2005
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I was sitting, waiting, wishing
You believed in superstitions
Then maybe you'd see the signs.
Lord knows that this world is cruel
And I ain't the lord I'm just a fool
And in love with somebody don't make them love you.
Chorus
Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool.
I sang your songs, I danced your dance
I gave your friends, all a chance
Putting up with them wasn't worth never having you
Oh, maybe you've been through this before
But it's my first time, so please ignore
The next few lines, cause they're directed at you.
I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool.
I keep playing your part
But it's not my scene
Want this plot to twist
I've had enough mystery
Keep building it up
Then shooting me down
But I'm already down
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Just wait a minute
Just sitting, waiting
Well if I was in your position
I'd put down all my ammunition
I'd wonder why it had taken me so long
But Lord knows that I'm not you
and if I was I wouldn't be so cruel
cause waitin' on love ain't so easy to do
Must I always be waiting, waiting on you
Must I always be playing, playing your fool
No I can't always be waiting, waiting on you
I can't always be playing, playing your fool, fool
| The.Goodbye. 6/22/2005 04:09:00 PM |
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know wat?
MY IPOD IS BACK IN SERVICE!!!!
hahaha meilian hand damn suay lor
every since the day she touch.. it has been
hanged-ing till juz a few seconds ago!!!
lol haha ok nvm.. tho' inside also go afew sucky songs..
but i'll get by it.. LOL
so happy.. can't wait for evening to come...
LOL...
fucking stress n tired sia
nabei...
| The.Goodbye. 6/22/2005 02:52:00 PM |
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the meeting up was
more of a serious tok
it was still fun tho'
lol when Meilian freak out
abt those guys keep looking at her..
lol
so we had to sit under void deck instead
haha we do haf common goals
n nt so common goals
but well.. it still wrks out
in the end wat we want is kinda the same lar huh
haha yeah when i sianz n all i will call u
n when u sianz u can call me too
n yeah its time to do n live for ourself
n achieve even more n greater things
do things dat i always wanted to do
with no obligations
alrite.. i m looking forward for tml... evening only
it is gona be so fucking great..
WAHAHAHA *EVIL SMILES*
LnT here i come!
oh yah.. Ron wants me to be her gym buddy...
lol... den gd can ask bro [pei] along!
kinda scouting for gym nw...LOL
ok.. i m so fucking tired..
i really need to concuss soon man..
| The.Goodbye. 6/22/2005 01:16:00 AM |
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Tuesday, June 21, 2005
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ok.. finally.. today is a fucking hectic day
nabei... stress is the mood here
wat the fuck...
shitified..
at least did enjoy alil when ron called
and gossip n say dat i m very gd!! LOL
so nice..
haha den ron called again..
sorry to put down the phone
so fast.. was busy
but yah dun worry i will help u
so in turns i guess it kinda mean we need to
meet up by thursday?
i'll try k.. dun get ur hopes up too high...
damn i m still stuck here...
fucking hell
need to get back pasir ris by 9.30pm
meeting the bapok..... its 8pm alrdy
| The.Goodbye. 6/21/2005 07:58:00 PM |
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fucking tiring...
didn't meet up with meilian val n gang
didn't hear meilian called me...
i was too tired to feel the damn vibration..[hp i mean]
meet up another time bah i guess?
weekends?
i m so fucking tired..
but fucking excited also..
oh man..
my face is peeling..
dats bad..
very bad..
oh man...
tired.. tired.. tired..
excited.. excited.. excited...
| The.Goodbye. 6/21/2005 01:11:00 AM |
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Monday, June 20, 2005
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oh man..
today i feel so old...
i tink fr nw on i will feel OLD..
Even tho' I M BARELY 21
oh man...
i duno..
tired.. sucks
oh man
i wonder how i will be like
u maybe 2-3 years time
5years.. is too long to think
haha.. i tink i will still be
as vulgar n crappy n lame
but other areas.. i ain't so sure man
but who noes.. i mite juz die
in a few hrs time?
LOL
| The.Goodbye. 6/20/2005 03:02:00 PM |
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ok i juz got hm
was so cold n drenched...
haha nice.. shiok.. but freaking cool
was with val at the fishing pond
hope u will catch fish k
we were.. like craping like shit lar
all those lame names dat came out
ultimate sia..
and i made a bet with val n i lost
i need to meet ___ by this week..
oh man...
sorry i need to leave so early
lol i need to wake up at 6.30am
pls.. hope dat i will..
if nt i m fucking screwed...
lol off to bed!!
| The.Goodbye. 6/20/2005 05:02:00 AM |
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Sunday, June 19, 2005
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was resting..
until val called..
tok for less den 2mins
den nt long aft
Ron called..
she is on her way to meet her friend
aft wrk...
yah.. she was saying
abt we haven met up yet
well soon i guess
ok.. i need to go out alrdy..
fucking late
| The.Goodbye. 6/19/2005 11:05:00 PM |
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alrite.. finally got my blog revamped
the neh neh tong one.. tonite i guess
freaking tired..
back aches.. burning.. sensations..
WAHAHA..
need really gd rest nw.. to be prepared
for wats next to come.
| The.Goodbye. 6/19/2005 06:11:00 PM |
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-flashback-
the pool was sucky..
meilian is one fucking
gd pool player
LOL nabei...
the staying over was nt bad?
played mahjong...
listened to val's crap
n see jyren and dat bisexual
lovey dovey
and juz mahjong..
lol... n yah guess wat
i m trying to be a nice guy
to wake dat bapok up..
she say i like her father..
very naggy... dat was nice...
didn't really slp at dere.. maybe a 15mins?
-today-[18.5.05]
today was such a gd day..
i got myself dyed red..
hmm to be actual
is face n arms...
the canoe was fucking hell fun man
i missed canoeing so damn much..
been so long since i last touched it man
the instructor.. the female one lar..
is being suspected as a LES.. LOL
oh well.. haha
oh yah n jess.. say the bung.. who was also in
the course... HOT.... tink she is fr my sch..
tsk.. tsk tsk.. got nothing to say sia
but i tink i quite accident prone lar..
got both my knee injured..
one is by the fibre-glass kayak
the other one.. is by those rocks near the damn shore...
u duno how swollen it is nw.. man...
showed flo she also like.. wah lau....
oh aft the canoeing shit
went bedok to meet dat troublesome FLO!
haha den went town to meet charissa n veron.. wah
damn long nvr meet alrdy...
den sharon supposed to come..
but didn't cos she say she nt close to the 2 of them...
like wat the fuck... LOL
was slacking at coffeebean paragon with the 3 of them..
can't believe we toked so much cork...
but i was very happy lar..
VERON SAID I LOST ALOT OF WEIGHT
wahaha so happy sia..
n charrisa say i look so much neater with my present
haircut.. which i tink is an insult..
LOL seek said i no more arty... farty... no more like
designer.. look... like huh..but really lar it hurts
but i guess Bopian lar.. but i still tink the next time
i go back dere n cut.. i tink i will shave back my mohawk..
lol...
oh yah found MORE CANOEING KAKIS N ROLLERBLADING KAKIS!!
wahahaha so happy!
more meet up on fridays n sats too LOL
fewer rejections fr me liaoz i assure u guys!
KTV SOON K!!
i feel the buring sensation...like fuck sia..LOL
juz hope the red will turn to tanned eventually..LOL
n HELL I CAN'T WAIT FOR NEXT WEEK CANOE COURSE SIA!
SINGLE KAYAK!!! WAH BEEN WAITING FOR IT DAMN LONG!!
alrite.. i feel like fuck... my whole body..
like burning..n my knees are screaming...
lol wat a nice timing...
wahaha
ok i need to get proper slp soon...
haven had a proper wink.. for.. days man...
| The.Goodbye. 6/19/2005 01:23:00 AM |
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
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its 6.34am
only me n jyren are awake nw
tink i m going to slp at ard 6.45am
need to wake meilian up for wrk
hope later she will remember to wake me up
for the canoe course too man.. sucks
oh man... hope i wun drown.. LOL
| The.Goodbye. 6/18/2005 06:33:00 AM |
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Friday, June 17, 2005
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ok u noe wat..
gals.. are so troublesome..
supposed to meet me at my house.
den aft decided i meet her at her house instead
den she say she come down again..
den nw.. she say.. lets go play pool...
wah lau.. MEILIAN ar ... u damn
troublesome!
| The.Goodbye. 6/17/2005 09:53:00 PM |
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hmm alrite
lol the shopping was great?
bought one pants..
still need at least one more man..
wahaha so happy
change of stlye liaoz..
lol
aft dat pei ask me to join her
n her frens at bedok85 for dinner
so met up with ting..erm.. ah kai? clarice and her gf
went to eat for awhile
den i took cab back...
supposed to pack my stuff
but i m so godamn lazy...
haha waiting for dat meilian to come over
den head off to fun!
hahaha
| The.Goodbye. 6/17/2005 08:10:00 PM |
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FUCK I LOVE MARILYN MANSON
OH MAN.. HIS VIDEO.. RAWKS
FUCKING DISGUSTING
ULTIMATE!.. OH MAN
I M FEELING SATANIC...
| The.Goodbye. 6/17/2005 03:27:00 PM |
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the day has juz been half lost
its raining.. out blading cum cycling plan
was ruined...
even tho' nw it has stopped raining
pei still dun wana go... lol
its ok.. next week onwards..
we haf kakis alrdy..LOL
but its ok..
no blading.. nvm
shopping time..
i need to shop
lol
n i tink i juz run out of
clothes to wear..
dang...
hope can get some later..
oh well..
haha.. haven pack my bag yet sia..
oh yah.. adelene showed me a profile..
she say wah bui tahan..
so desperate.. n then one of them looks like
LIMING!!! WAHAHAHAHA OH MAN!!!
haha power..
| The.Goodbye. 6/17/2005 01:56:00 PM |
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today... oh man... LOL
i tink its gona be a long one again!
met pei at bedok..
took a cab down..
the plan was to give our teeth
the clean n wide smile!
n ended up waiting 3hrs for it?
the dental sucks lar
CHEE BYE
the dentist.. scratched my GUMS
i can feel the pain...
when the water.. start spraying
into my mouth
but at least my teeth look so much
white-r! i m so happy! *smiling*
we finished the cleaning ard 4+..
den met up with meilian at bedok
actually at pei's house downstairs
me n meilian was waiting for pei to come down
den when pei is finally down
we went to the interchange
cos pei need to pass some stuff to her friend
hmm den we went bedok hawker to eat..
HOKKIEN MEE!
den mei and pei came over my house
well seek was supposed to come
but she decided to go see com with her elder sis
guess wat we WATCHED!!
LINKIN PARK CONCERT!
haha n mtv cribs
n meilian is daydreaming abt it
lol...Dreamer...LOL
den we went to tam ard 9pm to meet syl
n send pei to the mrt at tam hm..
den syl n meilian went shopping
i m kinda glad dat Mango was alrdy closed
if nt i will be drag to Mango
by meilian.. Phew...
den as usual the slacking
met up with one of meilian fren
suhaila? i duno how to spell... sorry ar..
den was slacking at those stone seats near starbucks
waiting for the rest of the crew to arrive..
which is non other than jyren n Val lol
tink we tok so much cork lar.. LOL
n we had made plans for tml man all nite LONG!
at Meilian's house! woohoo~!
haha ok lar.. i so can't wait for tml.. LOL
so exciting! rite PEI! WAHAHAHA
sorry ron wasn't able to go for
the coffee session today
another day soon aye..!
damn i m so fucking tired
| The.Goodbye. 6/17/2005 01:38:00 AM |
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Thursday, June 16, 2005
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ok abt today...
hmm...
tink its kinda the first time..
where i tok on my hp till my batt is flat?
when it actually had 4bars....
was toking to ron...
firstly.. is to apologise to seek n pei
for toking on the phone.. all the time...
i noe seek hates it.. LOL
but sorry lar...
oh yah the cab uncle was being a jackass
keep trying to lame.. and stealing my conversation
with ron... n he tinks its funny?...
but anyway.. wah finally WATCHED MADAGASCAR!
its damn fucking funny!!!... [i like to move it move it]
but the cinema is freaking cold..........
aft the movie.. i went to get my hair cut..
at Chapter 2.. they are nt bad aye.. really
esp when they wash my hair.. like nice.. massaging
tho' the haircut wasn't wat i wanted....
kinda sucks.... but i tink i will still go back there n cut
since she gave me her name card n ask me go back to cut.
the comments i got for my haircut.. aren't really wat i wana hear..
oh man.. its ok.. hair will grow.. lol
aft dat i pei... PEI to send seek to wrk den we went hm..
finally hm early..
my mum was SHOCKED... nt by the hair..
alrite.. peace out..
tml is a chore day.. man...
| The.Goodbye. 6/16/2005 12:56:00 AM |
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Wednesday, June 15, 2005
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I don't know who to trust, no surprise
Everyone feels so far away from me
Heavy thoughts sift through dust
And the lies
Trying not to break,
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Everytime I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring and time between
And how trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me
Take everything from the inside
And throw it all away
'Cause I swear, for the last time
I won't trust myself with you
Tension is building inside, steadily
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts forcing their way, out of me
Trying not to break
But I'm so tired of this deceit
Everytime I try to make myself
Get back up on my feet
All I ever think about is this
All the tiring and time between
And how, trying to put my trust in you
Just takes so much out of me
I wont waste myself on you!
You!
Waste myself on you!
You!
| The.Goodbye. 6/15/2005 08:47:00 PM |
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i realised dat i have been going.. out
everyday since... last week?
plus everyday...hm late..lol
no wonder she ain't happy
haha wait till she found the tag
for the polo i bought yesterday.. think she
will kill me..
oh man i need a haircut..
n dat Topman shirt... and dat esprit sweater vest..
and LnT lol yeah man.. hope to get the haircut by
this week.. haha i need a rest man.. i m so tired...
hmm toking to ron nw... hmm
but i tink i gotta jump soon... fuck
i m always late...lol
| The.Goodbye. 6/15/2005 12:51:00 PM |
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alrite.. today is gona be a LONG ONE!
so many things happen today!!
first was meet PEI! to go to the
traffic police shit..
but we ended up going to
the comfort to book her retest
den we took a bus to traffic police shit.. LOL
n ended up walking.. like 20mins plus.. or even more!
but its ok.. lol LnT!!! lol
den we went to pamper ourself!!
SHOPPING!!! wah... i was so happy
lol like can't wait to get my money spent...
was looking for pei's blazer
can't really find.. we went to G2000..
she tried on hers.. size is 44..
guess mine? 50.. juz nice.. my shoulders too broad.. lor
CCB... lol den we went hunting ard for blazers..
n we ended up at esprit.. lol wah i fell in love with
the sweater vest! didn't get it in the end.. but soon LOL
den we went ard SHOPPING!... lol n i bought a Ralph poloTee
lol kinda glad dat i didn't buy that vest.. lol
den meet up with syl.. like finally Pei met all of the nene tongs!
haha had dinner together n waited for syl to finish wrk while slacking
at haagen diaz! haha den val came down to meet us..
den me pei syl n val went down to tam to meet MeiLian
den Peizhi Joined us aft wrk.. lol
like ultimate.. lol we really.. like 'lame-rs' there
laugh until like nobodies business
we will haf therapy-ise session with meilian aka latifah..lol
n more basketall n meeting up sesssions too! haha dun worry
i will call u nt only for basketball lol meeting up n slacking too!
n so is for the the BROS!.. BASKETBALL! BLADING!!! haha
ok i need to crash soon.. another day tml..
peace out!
oh did i mention someone called me n told me something lol
n den val was being so mean n evil
laughing at someone.. oh man... n making fun
wah utlimate! haha love the imitations! lol
| The.Goodbye. 6/15/2005 02:11:00 AM |
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Tuesday, June 14, 2005
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hmm.. nt enough slp
eyes sore.. n itchy..
damn.. but then.. it always happens
LOL
ok i m so lazy to move off
n i m fucking late!!!
i m so excited abt today.. LOL
| The.Goodbye. 6/14/2005 12:39:00 PM |
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I don't know your face, no more
Or feel the touch, that I adore
I don't know your face, no more
It's just a place, I'm looking for
We might as well be strangers, in another town
We might as well be living, in a different world
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well
I don't know your thoughts these days
We're strangers in, an empty space
I don't understand your heart
It's easier, to be apart
We might as well be strangers, in another town
We might as well be living, in another town
We might as well
We might as well
We might as well, be strangers - be strangers
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know of you now
For all I know
| The.Goodbye. 6/14/2005 01:34:00 AM |
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had a quite a nice meet up juz nw
we shld do it more OFTEN! :) :) :) :)
n got my eyebrows trim-!
haha like finally
alrite dats abt all?
meet up !
| The.Goodbye. 6/14/2005 12:51:00 AM |
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Monday, June 13, 2005
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was..saving all those photos in a cd-rom
but something went wrong with the cd
nothing came out.
all the photos are lost.
i guess its fated.
its telling me something..
| The.Goodbye. 6/13/2005 04:26:00 AM |
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was out with pei n seek
pei ask me to pei her to pei seek
so yah
went to paradiz centre?
slack there for 3hrs
listening to my ipod..
choosing music n all..
den we went to esplanade
seek went to wrk
so pei n me slack at her wrkplace
Via mar.. if i didn't get it wrong..
was so tempted.. by the CIGARS THERE
really wanted to buy n smoke man..
but its like those BIG ONE SIA..
sure gona take damn long to smoke..
having the experience of smoking those
smaller ones..
so yah..
lol ordered some
drinks.. Kahlua + milk taste like BAILEYS-NICE!
and Bols Peppermint + Milk.. guess its obvious
it taste like peppermint?.. lol kahlua tasted better..
we were there.. for HRS.. lol it was really nice to slack there
very nice infact..LOL
esp when 4 ladies.. were sitting infront of us.. LOL
one of them is quite CUTE..LOL
n thanks to PEI's evsdropping skills
n calculation.. pei tinks dat they are ard my age..
so ard 21-23 MAX.. haha i tot they were like 23-25..
cos they LOOK OLD.. LIKE OLD LAR...u noe OLD? like 24,25 very old lar
but oh well.. they were.. kinda noisy.. n bitchy too lar..
Gossip non-stop..
haha ok dats how the day ended
went hm together with pei seek n her fren -shared a cab
oh.. hope i'll haf a nice nice dream.. AGAIN... of yah...LOL
oh.. no nt ____ :)
| The.Goodbye. 6/13/2005 02:52:00 AM |
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Sunday, June 12, 2005
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hmm.. ok i m back n up to get it started...
woke up fr my sweet dream of someone
due to my mum ever loud voice..
saying [ask sis if she wants to eat
the dumpling there is 2 when she wakes
up] to my lovely bro..
then he came into my room..
trying to find his digicam.. n tried to wake me up
cos he can't find it...
i haven even upload the pics fr yesterday..
nvm..i can do it later.. since it ain't gona run away..
and the pain in my head.. due to the chivas.. is killing me...
drinking on an empty stomach.. which has been empty for quite awhile
is really bad.. to start drinking with.. lol
puked yesterday.. at there.. n puked juz nw too... oh man
n i can still smell chivas when i burp...
chivas... sucks..lol
ok lets get back to yesterday..
yesterday was like chalet hopping
first was meilian's
then adlina's
lets tok abt meilian one first
nothing much at first..
wanted to bowl..
but no lanes..
so gave up n syl...
the usual syl.. came out with hide n seek...
so yah.. there are plenty of us there..
jyren.. n the bisexual gal
meilian me syl and meilian n jyren's cousins
i wasn't quite the hide n seek fan
but played along in the end..
n damn was it fun!!! lol
serious.. haha we played.. block by block
the chalet block of cos..
me meilian and syl were hiding together.. most of the time
lol we climb out fr the parapet and walked on the so called 'roof'?
n slack n smoked there while they were looking for us..lol
some places we hide was so funny... n obvious but the 3 of us were..
nt discovered.. even.. when they walked past us.. haha
den aft awhile syl left to find adlina
so its like me n meilian hiding together only..
we were squeezing ourself below the stairs... so fucking cramp
n neck-hurting.. n guess wat we were the first one to be FOUND!
cos MEILIAN'S SLIPPER GAVE US AWAY!...
haha but the best was when the both of us were hiding
ard a pillar.. lol we juz move ard.. the pillar lol n manage to actually
be the last 2 to be found.. LOL..
den we finally decided the hide n seek was to end
so we went to adlina's chalet nw.. lol
has quite drama drama shit happen with
the 'angmoys' staying opp lol
they called us fucking chinese..
lol they were.. bad at english i tink
cos they were toking... n trying to scold us
with.. hmm i duno.. russian? we juz end up laughing
n of cos.. me n meilian were kinda quarreling with them
but oh well.. i tink its funny.. lar
like they so pek cek trying to scold us.. but we dun understand..
its all due to some noise pollution.. at ard 2+am..
well its a chalet.... oh yah..
aft that was blackjack session..
went fr winning $1 to losing $5 den to even
haha oh well den meilian n her cousins went back to their chalet
so left me syl adlina n.. another gal.. i dun quite rem
her name.. sorry abt that..
we were playing 5-10!!
loser get a slap..
haha shiok sia... den we decided to finish up the chivas
instead of slapping.. so yah...
i didn't lose much.. its juz bcos i was drinking chivas..
juz chivas with ice.. bfore we started playing..
so yah.. lol.. i tink chivas really sucks..
den we played till sianz..
i finally rem.. i bought the cam
n we started taking loads.. of nonsense photos..
haha oh well.. den i ended.. puking.. while
the 3 of them continue taking photos..
lol.. but i m back in action no time!
see i dun get drunk easily.. juz.. maybe..
empty stomach make the chivas spins inside
ok lar dats abt all.. i left out loads of details actually..
my spinning pain in the head.. is killing
n i m LATE!!!... LOL
| The.Goodbye. 6/12/2005 10:53:00 AM |
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alrite i m finally hm...
smellinhg nice..lol
was really lazy to bathe..
but i was smelling... like
chivas cig and root beer... LOL
nw i m offically allergic to
Vodka and chivas.. rashes.. is forming
n i feel the skin comming off my legs..
ok.. i cannot take it..
update tml.. heading off to bedddddddd...
| The.Goodbye. 6/12/2005 06:05:00 AM |
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Saturday, June 11, 2005
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its been awhile since i had such great fun
thanks to bro PEI~!
n no we did nt gaygay at all
so stop wondering..
watched dvds.. slack.. tok cork
slack.. watched dvds.. n tok cork again..
its was fun lor watched RAY.. n DAMN IT WAS GD
but its was long.. n tho' i kinda hate Ray his attitude
towards.. love n loyal but in the end he changed for the better
its nt hard to achieve cos usually people/ humans
nvr learn fr their mistakes.. including me
so sad..how a human live their life..
oh yah.. btw.. we slack till so late at the kopithiam
keep toking cork.. until its the wee hours..LOL
den Pei finally decided to stay over n WATCH MORE DVDS!
this time with her AHEM... SEEKY!
LOL
alrite we watched till 5+am den head off to bed!!!
haha but i couldn't seem to slp.. oh man..
had stuffs packed.. kept in the box
in the cupboard.. putting all behind
its time that i tink for myself
and move on...
| The.Goodbye. 6/11/2005 02:36:00 PM |
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Friday, June 10, 2005
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i can't believe wat i saw
ha i was the fool again
i hope ur happy be delighted to fool me again
i juz can't believe
u are doing it to me again
i miss the butch hunt
but its ok i got to noe one of them
n got a ride..
nt bad..
i juz felt like i m living a lie
for the past 2 years..
i juz can't believe it
| The.Goodbye. 6/10/2005 03:18:00 AM |
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Thursday, June 09, 2005
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i had a major quarrel with my dad
i m crying like shit
this is prob the worse quarrel
with him that i ever had
partly bcos of the quarrels
the words he said n i said
i haf personal probs that i can't say
i m feeling the way i m feeling
bcos of a reason
i wished i could tell him
straight in his face
that i m a lesbian
i haf juz lost a 2years relationship
with the gal i wanted to spend
my forever with..
but will he understands?
will he even hear me out..
or will he locked me up in a room
n forbid me to go out..
juz bcos i m a lesbian?
i duno..
the other reason i cried
was bcos a familiar voice who
will always tell me to nt be angry
to nt be bothered abt them
is gone...
no longer dere..
aft the quarrel
i juz wanted to run to u
to tok to u.. to tell u
like i always do..
but i wonder.. if i tok
to u... would u even care...
wuld u even be bothered..anymore..
| The.Goodbye. 6/09/2005 12:26:00 AM |
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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
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All my bags are packed, I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breaking, it's early morn'
The taxi's waiting, he's blowing his horn
Already I'm so lonesome I could die
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
but tell him that they don't mean a thing
Every place I go I’ll think of you
Every song I sing I'll sing for you
When I come back, I'll wear your wedding ring
So kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
Now the time has come to leave you
One more time, oh let me kiss you
And close your eyes and I'll be on my way
Dream about the days to come
When I won't have to leave alone
by the times that I won't have to say
Oh kiss me and smile for me
Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
But I'm leaving on a jet plane
I don't know when I'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go
But I'm leaving on a jet plane
On a jet plane
| The.Goodbye. 6/08/2005 01:05:00 AM |
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Monday, June 06, 2005
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the date today is very disturbing..
i m very tired
tired of everything
its nt easy
its getting on me..
i m alrdy beaten
i duno who i m anymore
| The.Goodbye. 6/06/2005 03:39:00 AM |
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Sunday, June 05, 2005
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thing don't always goes ones' way
i gotta learn it
| The.Goodbye. 6/05/2005 05:42:00 AM |
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first of all...
sorry to my bros... Val n syl
i noe i let you guys down by keep missing in action
i m really sorry..
finally got myself enrolled in the 1star canoe course
too bad pei.. can't join... hai
went pasir ris whitesands to eat..
my fav curry chicken..
hai but i can't finish it... hai
too many memories..
went expo for the camera cum it fair..
den went airport..
bad timing.. viewing mall is gone? reno or watever..
so we end up slacking at the staircase..
for quite a few hrs..
suprised... but i got a bad bruise on my lowerback
think i put too much pressure when i lean on the corner
of the stairs..
neverthless.. nvr tot it will be such fun
end up with all the gossips n all..
it was a nice day.. but i felt very tired...
in both ways...
being back hm... doesn't make things better
i juz feel like my family is falling apart...
it hurts to see..
nvr tot it will hurts so much..
nobody toks to nobody now..
even if there is a conversation
it will end up being a huge quarrel
n den everyone gets fed up n hurt..
maybe being quiet for nw
is the best...but it really hurts to see..
| The.Goodbye. 6/05/2005 02:19:00 AM |
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Thursday, June 02, 2005
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The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah
I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide
I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
Even the best fall down sometime
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
Somehow find
You and I collide
Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide
| The.Goodbye. 6/02/2005 12:14:00 AM |
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