Tuesday, May 30, 2006
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my mood level now is on a 1/10 scale
yes.. its has been spoiled badly..
horrible-ly badly.. its abt work
what else is new? the website
was a screwup... yes i m very
inexperience when it comes to website
i said that from the start. fuck
i asked the fucking fucked up IT GUY
he fucking attitude.. even Andy also cannot
stand him.. then fine.. want to test and all
CHEE BYE malaysia side throw me alot of shit..
den nvm royston also tell me do the e-newsletter
and send out NOW.. u know i kena interupted how
many times? its like today supposed to be just
the website.. in the end i got buy 1 get 5 'free' offers?
this is ultimate screw up.. i hate to feel this way
fucking pek cek.. n causing me to have a panic attack..
i hope later at thumpers will ease the mood
n i m going with my laptop.. feel kinda screwed
hai.. tml need to wake up early to send niki off
hai.. i feel so bad not going down today.. hai
kena last min OT.. go down now.. is the middle
of the service....n i dun like the pastor..
i duno everything just seems to be going so wrong.
i tink i m crumble over the fact of my friend's death
over the fact that i hate my fucking job to the core
over the fact that i can't seem to tattoo whichever part
i want to without tinking much abt regrets.
too many regrets... that i can't bear..
this latest one.. hurt me one of the most
the second time i didn't get to say a final
goodbye... i can't face that fact... hai i just can't
the next time when things like that happen to me
dun bother to come visit.. cos i dun deserve it at all
this time, this place, misused, mistake
too long, too late,just one chance, just one breath
just incase there is just one left.
but there is none.. none left.
| The.Goodbye. 5/30/2006 07:04:00 PM |
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Monday, May 29, 2006
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i left work early tonite..
i can't really face the com/ work
since andy.. n the 2 bosses not around
and the kpo guy left at 4+ no one is
around at my side alrdy..
so i decided to pack up early so i can
do down to the wake earlier
reached the wake ard 5.20... or so..
there is alrdy quite alot of ppl there
i guess its good..
she always love the crowds
u know one thing.. i hate.. there
is the pastor..yes.. him.. his service
is like... supposed to tok abt my friend
say abt her life.. not promoting..
christianity...n also not.. repeating the
same thing.. abt how he converted my fren,
her mum and gf..... i duno.. u know..
its frustrating... den val told me.. no point tinking
abt it.. just tell myself that he is a bad pastor and thats
all.. so he is really a BAD PASTOR
i duno if i m going down tml.. they told me
not to go down.. since i m meeting myfrens
tell me its ok.. hai.. i duno man.. we'll see how..
hai..
if u notice at my tagboard there is a poot
i told the poot i going tattoo den the poot
so excited tel me she draw one too and this is
what she sent me...
hers is the ah lian tattoo
mine is the chao beng one..
i duno what to say when i saw.. her 'tattoo'
she was lucky i was late.. if not i would have
been mean.. hahaha...
oh well
her mind is tiffanytwisted.
| The.Goodbye. 5/29/2006 11:54:00 PM |
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Yesterday at 2.03 am i recieved a msg
from palpal.. saying this..
'niki passed away 2 hrs ago.. and the details
of the wake... at bedok north rd.. blk 121..'
i duno.. what to react.. i was in the midst of
drinking.. with my frens.. crapping like shit
with the barmaid.. n the barbutch there we
even exchanged nos and kinda 'made' plans
to go.. other places to drink?.. hai
i guess it came as such a surprise... or not..
i was just telling pal.. this comming week
go visit her.
i guess that can nvr happen then..
the biggest regret i have is.. i nvr
went to visit her..
n yes u know i would like to
say that i m not in the mood for
much stuff.. it be good to stay away
for awhile if u plan to start a fucked
up conversation with me..
u know i m not really in the mood.
too many things are happening..
i dun like it.. its ok if its depressing
but this is bringing me down..badly..
hai u know .. its so hard to know one
of ur close fren has left..
i guess many of us nvr tot that
this is how the old hang out group
meet up in full .. at our dear fren's
wake...
u know i will miss being called
'da baby' by her.. i will miss her
cheerful self.. she is a very strong
lady..
lets all take 1min of slience..
n pray for her.
this is her blog fr the day she
knew she had the illness till yesterday.
http://xiaodoudou.blogspot.com/
she may be gone.. but nvr forgotten
i know she is in the good hands of god
where there is alrdy a place in heaven for her
we all miss her dearly
| The.Goodbye. 5/29/2006 01:34:00 AM |
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Sunday, May 28, 2006
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update on the outing tml first. and the tattoo.
I tink my tattoo kena infection
its swollen.. red.. n swollen and red.
and it hurts.. quite badly.. n i m limping
quite badly..
BUT I M in LOVE with THE TATTOO!
the pain is defintely worth it.
i so wana tattoo again.. hmm
maybe next mth.. which is a few
days time.. haha oh i touch up
my previous tattoo too.but i keep
forgettiing.. nbanging into it.
aft the tattoo session...
went to chinatown carbaret? i tink its spelt this way..
watch... drag show.. i tell u.. got one.. damn PRETTY
such a waste she is a HE... gawd.. damn pretty lar..
the chris twins are defintely going back
den we head down for more drinks..
to this pub call 95.. its nice lar..
i mean the ppl there.. saw irene ang
the barmaid.. haha one ah lian [ i dun remember her name]
one lao huay [ dort/dot/dorothy] .. n one is
my long time.. ago.. IRC MATE! wahahaha..
i like the service.. i tink its the drink.. that makes me
darn noisy.. that day.. tok too much..
but u know.. the day didn't end on a good note..
i'll explain why in the next post
| The.Goodbye. 5/28/2006 11:38:00 PM |
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alot of things happened
mostly bad... its so hard
to interpret
i guess i always regret aft
things happens.. n i can
nvr change anything aft that
i guess i have to live with
the regret for now..
but for now.. my new tattoo
| The.Goodbye. 5/28/2006 04:21:00 PM |
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Saturday, May 27, 2006
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i tink i better blog bfore i fall aslp.
i hate shopping for presents....
cos i m worried i buy something
that the other party dun like?
hahaa.. cos i dun like to see disappointment
in their faces...
ok tattoo.. my dear chris twin
just tempted me to tattoo tml
yes still alil undecided...
but yes i m damn tempted
i even designed it alrdy..
as in in the process..
damn it... my BIGGEST
ADDICTION HAS ALWAYS BEEN
TATTOOS!
i tink i get disgusted very easily..
sometimes i tink i change too fast?
hahaha
oceans away..
i hate to feel this way..
the addiction of tattoo..
its so hard to.. contol..
HAAA
| The.Goodbye. 5/27/2006 12:23:00 AM |
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Friday, May 26, 2006
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the starting of the day...
was not too good..
but everything was alrite
come the end of the day..
i guess its just boredom at work
i m losing interest in my work more
too many gd distractions..[ lol ]
do i look like someone.. with
alot of ex-gf?.. how come ..
... got this person.. dun believe
me when i said i only have that
certain amount.... haha is that
so hard to believe? i m not a
big flirt...k... n i m not so
desperate! wahahahahahah
ok i m not gona do my work
u know i m so tempted to take mc.
how? shhld i? but next wed need to
take leave.. argh stress...
i shall rest early man..
slping time soon
been out.. aft work.. since monday..
the whole week...plus tml...
plus sat.. but sat is drinking time!
wahahaha.. ok lar.. off to bed soon.....
argh.
TELL ME!!! i wana know.. argh if
only i can read ur mind man
| The.Goodbye. 5/26/2006 02:36:00 AM |
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Thursday, May 25, 2006
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ok today i m finally slping early.
i m really damn tired.
i'll rush out everything by tml
i have been slacking big time
for this past week.. its time to
get back to myself n my responsibilities
altho' the past few days is ultimate fun.
sometiimes i duno what to do.
i wished i know what others are
thinking.. argh its like
i m stuck at this position where
i m not myself... and i m pushing
it away... i was told to be back to
myself.. thats the first thing i
need to do.. i will .. be back to
the irritating me i guess.. LOL
looking forward to the weekend
drinks... i love it.
i m not typing write.. as my brain is
not functioning.. very well.. due
to lack of slp.. n hungry-nesss
i shall head off to bed soon
u know .. for the first time in my life
i m so sure of what i want..
and
i m over you
| The.Goodbye. 5/25/2006 01:53:00 AM |
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Wednesday, May 24, 2006
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ok.. today's presentation sucked
by fri i need to get everything settled
n go down n present. dooms day
and today aft the presentation
i slacked the whole freaking day.
tml shld get back to work..
haha n i was suppsed to do my
flash just now.. or at least i told
someone... but i end up chatting..
again.... nabei. lar. haha i ought to be
shot.... hahahahaaha but its ok lar
i tink shld be quite fast? hopefully...
kennie CALLED ME!!!!! N TOLD ME
she help me buy flash 8!!!! hehs
see this is what i call good fren..
cos she calling me fr KL lor.. to
just ask me what i wana buy.. cos
she remembered i wana buy.. softwares..
altho i only worked with her.. for 3mths?
somemore.. different department lor..
i m so blessed with my frens around!
ah yi told me.. chris ... is taking me
very seriously abt graveyard.. den ah yi..
looked at me.. n say.. i can take it not..
wah lau.. i know that time.. waterfall n shots..
i throw face.. LOL but graveyard. .. drink
bfore le leh.. just give me bad bad headche.
lol we see how this goes... then..
i was told.. play the game right.
yes.. i want to man.. its been quite awhile
but the feeling.. is just as swt. or even swtter?
ok i m tinking too much lar..
i was told.. to slp early.. as i m not young
anymore.. dang.. who else so naggy?
off to bed soon!
everyone knows your way over your head.
| The.Goodbye. 5/24/2006 01:05:00 AM |
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Tuesday, May 23, 2006
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u can kill someone.. n i wil still look at u as human
u can steal all my money .. leave me to starve..
i will still look at u as a human...
but if u stabbed me at my back... betray me..
or be the third party of a break up in marriage
or relationship... i dun tink i be able to see
u as a human... not even a beast .. u will become
beyond description.
The point i m trying to prove is that i will nvr
ever be a third party of a relationship.
work was hell.. n fucked up..
tml 10am.. meeting.../presentation..
i haven really done anyshit.. i m so dead..
supposed to do.. but i end up.. spending it..
chatting away... yes... i know.. i sucked.
but i m happy i m going to donate
BLOOD SOON! yes.. i've always wanted..
hahaha i duno when or where.. must see
that ah yi... when i told val... she told.. me
to take iron pills.. cos i look like i got low
blood pressure....... hahaha
i forgot that taka got.. best denki..?
went washing machine shopping/digicam
shopping/laptop shopping... the next time
i m not gona call the cai fan at taka.. basement..
not very nice.. LOL
well all i can is that i m glad that my taste
on female stuff has improve[wait amin is that even a good thing?]
my new resolution... for the year
smoke less [ LOL ]
Slp early [ LOL]
i wonder when i can ever make it.
| The.Goodbye. 5/23/2006 02:38:00 AM |
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Monday, May 22, 2006
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i tell u sometimes when you tok
to ur friend u get so damn pek cek..
cos they get the wrong msg...
for example..
HUH YOU SURE NOT?
**** very faithful...
den i was like.. wah lan..
i was saying the other one.. leh
who interested in that ****
haha but its ok.. i m very happy..
n val knows why.. LOL val i really hope
what u predict is true.. i'll really be on
cloud no.9.. but right now.. lets
take it slow.. man.. my brother
i bought too many stuffs.... serious...
2 shoes.. 1 collar tee.. 1 long sleeve tee
1 surf berm... n some stuffs here n there..
i m so darn broke alrdy... like what
i was told .. eat grass n air.. for the rest of the
mth.... the trip was alrite lar.. shopping.. !
n entertaining bimbo.. but yah.. it was
quite fun n all.. the coach trip back..
.. is like.. shiok lar.. hahaha ok .. lar
finally saw twin tower/ erm.. n
shopped alot.... hehs
fucking tired lar.
| The.Goodbye. 5/22/2006 12:49:00 AM |
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Saturday, May 20, 2006
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hehs..
nice nite lar.. serious
Waterfall... hahaha
n yes ah yi i m stubborn
n vain... yes i know!
Chris more session to come!
PEI TOO!!!! and VAL!!!!!
the 4 butch n a girl outing
hehs... we all got.. damn red
except val.... but i m having
headache now.. n the rest of
them are happily slping!
i will try to find what that
ah ma want..? ahaha
ok KL HERE I COME!~
| The.Goodbye. 5/20/2006 06:00:00 AM |
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Friday, May 19, 2006
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thoughts
what are thoughts?
tell me more?
its not easy
and its not getting any easier
i m so fucking tired.
lets hope later will ease the mood
what you do want from me.
| The.Goodbye. 5/19/2006 05:34:00 PM |
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my body is gona break.
i m so fucking tired.
i m feeling hungry..
damn... it man...
i just saw something n i m
darn happy i call that karma
one couple broke up.. u know
i m so fucking happy.. its call
karma for what the did n said.
fuck the both of u.
[even tho' u guys dun really know
who m i nor view this blog]
but yes FUCK U BOTH
had a haircut.. n tht 'gorgeous'
actually says mite as well
shave ... all? thanks..
appreciate that.
i duno i tink the haircut sucks
i haven really pack the bag..
hmm hmmm.. hmmm..
work.. drag.. but aft work..
hmmmm..
n pei .. dun anyhow think.. k
chill.. dude.
| The.Goodbye. 5/19/2006 02:56:00 AM |
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Thursday, May 18, 2006
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today... was.. hmmm hard to explain
kinda like the 'first' day of work aft a long long
rest... bad things happens
i forgot to bring my ipod...
i got slight hangover.. fucked up
nvm go to office... andy tells me
one of the namecard i did... was wrong
info... FUCKED.. den go back ... andy
tells me they nvr send out EDMS.. i mean
fuck man.. i duno what to say....
went to moonfish in the aftnn
i felt a great sense of satisfaction
from the board outside the restaurant
[ok one of the board not done by me] to the menus..
and some things over here n there.. are done
by me? it just felt great.. until the photoshoot
started... hai i duno i felt like.. sad.. why..
why is that happening to me? hai.. m i having
doubts in myself hai..
aftdat was at prints.. almost bought.. this book.
but didn't cos they dun have.. the pvc without..
any patterns.. oh well.. save my money.. too
was shopping at town...with some implusive
shopper!!!.. who... erm.. try on the t-shirt
walked out n asked us if its nice... n we said yes.
she.. wana go pay just like. that with the clothes on...
yes.. its armani... they have that sensor.. thingy..
whatever at the back of the t-shirt... den she suggested..
she change take out the t-shirt we pay for her..
n she really did that.. n now i KNOW HER PIN NO.!!!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA ok evil laughter....
n guess what we got lost at pasir ris...
yes.. my very own housing estate!
i m hungry.. i tink i wana cook noodles..
hehs... tequila making.. my stomach empty..
sai. . .
tml haircut lar!!! shioka! hehs...
| The.Goodbye. 5/18/2006 01:24:00 AM |
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Wednesday, May 17, 2006
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when ppl are nice to you
doesn't mean they like you
they are just nice
when ppl flirt with you
doesn't mean they like you
they are just flirtatious
when ppl are sacastic
doesn't mean they hate you
they are just sarcastic..
when ppl comment nice things abt you
doesn't mean they mean it
its either they are trying to be nice?,
they wana get something from you?
or they just wana get u in bed lar.
when ppl pick on you
doesn't mean they tinks your like shit
they are just picky n have nothing
better to do?
or they actually pick on you cos they care?
define yourself.. here
are u the slut/bitchy/bimbotic?
[which means u tinks that everything thats
the opp that i just said]
or are u the naive kind?
[which means u believe in what everyone
says?]
or are u the clever? defintely not naive
and mature.. n knows how to tell?
we shld all just trust ourself..lar fuck
the best solution nw is trust death! cos
when u die nothing matters anymore!
HOORAY!!!! come on ppl!
lets chant DEATH!DEATH!DEATH!
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what do you do when you are hook
on alcohol?
BUY MORE ALCOHOL!
Wahahaha
tml i m finally goin back to
work aft 6 days of 'rest'
i didn't get much rest i tink..
LOL...
what do you do when u meet
taxi uncles who can't stop talking?
i hate it when that happens
but i guess if the story is interesting
it shldn't be that bad? i duno man
HAHA i wanted to say to ah yi
SAVE ME! SAVE ME!
appeal starts today,,,its
quite stressing.. man..
not gona do it today.
prolly tml or what..
oh you know what..
mr bean comes out with this
new flavour.. for one of their.. kuey..
TUNA.... i duno it just seems sucky..
so not right.. YUCKS.......................
i need a haircut
| The.Goodbye. 5/17/2006 12:54:00 AM |
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Tuesday, May 16, 2006
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i love shots. esp its T. shots
hhaha lychee is too swt..
ok i forgot the name of that
bar/pub.. not too bad i must say
hahaha tho' i tink i m alil
tone deaf.. nw
but well the waitress is
quite pretty.. but ah lian.
val will like it.. LOL j/k
bar hopping...
turns out.. hmmm
haha but neverthless
it was really great..
haven dance like that for ages
ok i tink the shots is kinda
acting up... i hope i wun get HO
later.. man.. that will be 2 days in
a row... i feel so red.. like a cooked
crab.. but at least its not vodka..
if not i'll be an itchy cooked crab.
i enjoyed the company
and dun worry abt what happen
its alrite.. aye
we shall all remained calm[i love it when val says this]
haaaaaaaaaa
shots are God
and dancefloor is heaven.
do the math here
blabber talks
blah blah blah
i just love the drinks.
| The.Goodbye. 5/16/2006 04:20:00 AM |
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Monday, May 15, 2006
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i missed work today.
having bad HO...
screwed up
can i hire a killer
to kill myself
| The.Goodbye. 5/15/2006 02:54:00 PM |
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i guess there are times when u look at urself
in disgust.. this is the time.. i duno how to look
at myself in the mirror... the dinner tonite..
killed me.. too many tots n flash back on who i m
how i was and what i've done.
i owe my parents too much..
i nvr learn to be appreciative..
nvr.. nvr learn to be anything
nvr learn from my mistakes
u know its like so funny when i say
i look at certain personal with disgust..
i m begining to look at myself with the
strongest disgust... i guess the one person
i hate the most is myself...
i wished someone would hate me enough
to kill me..
i wondered if i were to cross the road tml
n i got killed by a crash... i wonder if anyone
gona mourn.. for me? miss me? or they just
tink it be better then i m gone from this world
i m just a failure.. in every single thing i do
i dun even tink my parents were ever proud of me
i dun even tink that anyone was proud of me.
i m not even proud of myself
i just wished that i was a stranger..
a stranger no one bothered.
then i would'nt have to tink abt
all the letdowns.. i created
the saying that drink ur troubles away
is not that true.. not with the T.
| The.Goodbye. 5/15/2006 01:29:00 AM |
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Sunday, May 14, 2006
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the Singapore national athem is playing
on radio.. its 6.00am!
n i just got hm n bathed...
ITS MOTHER's DAY!!!!
HAPPY MOTHER's DAY TO MY MUM!
usual mother's day dinner later today..
this time at pizza hut .. my bro
made that choice... just seem so weird?
oh well... i feel like giving my mum
a kiss and a hug.. n wish her happy
mother's day.. so lame i know..
but i duno.. cos recently i can feel
her love n care.. [ i know its damn weird
comming out from me]
i know i love my family.. but sometimes..
its just hard.. the past.. the happenings
is just so hard to keep it n see through it
but i know they are the one who love me
the most.. but i ain't sure if they are the one
i love the most.. its just hard
NBL.. has free internet service
yes but they also have singnet.
cool huh?
its been so long since i last done research..
lucky i m not the one doing it......LOL
for one moment... i feel bad abt saying bimbo..LOL
but just for one moment...LOL
when a stranger calls .. really boring
movie..sucky plot.. no thrills n no
gruesome images.. esp.. when accompained..
by screamers.. [ i duno what they screaming abt]
nothing scary... damn disappointment.
but i must say the lead actress is quite pretty...but
her eyebrow... too thick?... alil weird.. hahaha
camilia belle.. i tink... LOL
the lappy died on me.. missed out the phototaking
session.. LOL.. lesson learnt here.. dun bring the
laptop out if u are planning to stay out till 5+am
in the morning.. fucking heavy shit.
i was called a sadist..
and we all agreed that i m nice..
and i m a fucking bastard...
ok fine.. the last 2 lines is said n
agreed by me only.LOL
and what it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
Cause I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette
off to B.E.D.
| The.Goodbye. 5/14/2006 05:46:00 AM |
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Saturday, May 13, 2006
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ok.. time nw 5.22am
my parents woke up..
Damn.. hahaha
so i guess i m off to bed?
oh well ..
| The.Goodbye. 5/13/2006 05:25:00 AM |
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=INNER VOICE=
Do we really have an inner voice inside of us?
Does inner voice also means our deepest thoughts?
the deepest...most.. truthful thoughts?
lets say like today i was in a cab
a reckless driver... if i was in my usual crappy mood
i would SMS to the person i m meeting n say things like
this - if i don't make it there within 20mins.. means i m
prolly gone from the world.. pls help me tell my friends i
miss them.. my family BLah BLah BLah.. [yah i know lame]
but today i secretly hoped that.. a deadly crash would occur
so is that my most truthful tots? oh well.. we are just so
unpredictable..
humans are just so disgusting.. so.. unbelievable at times
yah i m saying this including myself. i tink the one species
that need to be extinct is definitely humans.. WE ARE ALL
SO FUCKED UP! Filled with SLUTS, DESPERATE, CHILIDISH,
IRRESPONDSIBLE ppl.
on another note.. today----
Adventure.. day.. without a doubt
hiding from my friend's parents..
yes i need to hide from there..
dun ask me why.. i just need to.
i tell u.. one hell of adventure.
almost got discovered afew times..
LOL its not like the house there
alot of place to hide.. LOL fuck..
but it was fun.. lar.. lame...
Lastly thanks for the company.
enjoyed it. Esp.. the hiding..
from the parents part.. LOL
| The.Goodbye. 5/13/2006 03:45:00 AM |
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Friday, May 12, 2006
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ok usually i have a 1 day 1 post silent policy
but this one i gotta post.
its 12+am.. i was planning to go bathe..
so i took out the 'ashtray' in my room
to clear n switched on the heater n the bathroom lights
went to clean the ashtray..at the kitchen
as i turned back.. n head towards the bathroom..
i saw my brother running out fr his lighted room
with his hand.. at his crotch area.... n rushing to the
toliet... i knew he just masterbate.... yes.. sick i know
what do u expect? he is a guy?... imagine how sick i m
i was planning to bathe... so i will feel worse..
so feeling disgusted.. went back to my room
n realise.. that my room smell like expired cigs..
gawd.. i m gona slp with that smell tonite.. man
but its ok.. i m gona light any cigs again..
anyone willing to sponser me.. air freshener? pls
lavender smell.. thank you. LOL
ok back to the main topic... so aft awhile i went back
to the toliet to take my bath... n reallised he didn't
flush the toliet.. .. fucking gross.. lar.. really
what a exciting bathing experience i have for the day
guys.. will always be guys.
so i will always be me
a fucking bastard
| The.Goodbye. 5/12/2006 01:20:00 AM |
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Thursday, May 11, 2006
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KENG KENG KING.
yes Keng 1 day mc.
and maybe a ticket to
see the specialist
and 2 tube of cream
for DECOMPOSING SKIN
LOL. and plenty of medicine
saw this teenager toking to
her mum very rudely.. pointing
finger.. at her mum.. n saying her
reminded me of last time.. i wonder
if i did that to my parents.. i tink i did
i look at the teenager with a slight
disgust.. and temptation to go over
n give her a piece of my mind.
den i look at myself who i m to say
when i was once like that.
suddenly i felt disgusted with myself
i guess we just never learn .. will we ever?
i wished i could live my life all over again
den i will end my life bfore i turn into
the monster i m today.
| The.Goodbye. 5/11/2006 05:14:00 PM |
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if i were you
holding the world right in my hand
first thing i'll do is thank the stars
for all that i m
if i were you
So what's it going to take?
For you to realize
That it all could go away,
in one blink of an eye...
It happens all the time
sometimes the one that betrays you
are the ppl you nvr tot it will be.
| The.Goodbye. 5/11/2006 03:01:00 AM |
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Wednesday, May 10, 2006
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ok.. depression mode.
since tml i m gona take MC..
so this week is over.
MY colleague is leaving by this week..
so that means.. i wun get to see her..
she today on Half-day leave...
oh man.. sianz alrdy at work..
she is my crapping partner lar..
friendster surfing pretty girls partner..
sianz... liaoz... working life has just shift
down fr scale of 5 of 10 to
scale of 2/3 of 10..
argh,... workload pile-ing up...
n me not wanting to do.. it ain't helping
[i know its my fault] but oh well,.
i don't really give a fuck.
-----Yesterday------
SAW CARRIE CHONG! or izit cheong?
with some guy.. SWIMMER?
so i was told.. but i dn give a damn
n carrie chong. looks pretty normal..
not as hot.. as she look when she took
off her top... that time... she is some
HOT STUFF ... great bod. oh of cos
she got her bikinis on...
simple description
FUN.LAME.FUCKINGLAME.
IDIOTIC.MAKINGaFOOLofOURselves.
ENJOYABLE.
there last nite!
| The.Goodbye. 5/10/2006 10:47:00 AM |
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Tuesday, May 09, 2006
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quick one.. tmd
last min give me work.
can't wait for later man!!
WOO HOO~!
ENTERTAINMENT TIME!!!!
ROCK ON! YEA
| The.Goodbye. 5/09/2006 05:53:00 PM |
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Monday, May 08, 2006
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To sum up yesterday
SPLENDID N YAY!
plus
A fucking full dinner/supper?
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Have you ever wondered if conscience
this thing actually exist? sometimes I look
at myself and wonder if I have it for real.
I see it around my friends I see those who I
tink they have and those who I tink they don't.
but then again... does that really exist. and does
it really matter? I guess at some point of time
nothing matters anymore.
Ever wondered how it feels like when ppl look
at you in disbelief and disgust? ever wondered
how its like when ppl look at you and no longer
could find words to say to u? I do and I wonder
what those ppl who feels like that.. thinks too..
wonder if they realise or even know that is happening
to them. I wonder if they feel the same as I do.
Ever wondered if the present you is who you really
are? who you really want to be? Ever wondered if
the present you was influenced by the pple around u,
the situations around you? Or isit ur desire to fit in to
something... to make urself feel better? sometimes its
so hard to tell... so hard to understand ourselves... is
our current aims what we really want? or cause its the
given situations... sometimes I can't deny that outsiders
see us better den we see ourselves... n we always try
to deny whatever they put to us. Self-denial? I duno
I dun tink so.. I just think that we choose to
believe in what we make believe rather then the truth.
Everyone live their lives with their supposedly aims and
Goals... in another way live for urself... but when aims
and goals are in a blur state what are u gona do? I guess
no one has the answers for that. when that happen we
tend to stray away... find ways to numb ourselves... in
which some may be good and some only bring harms.
and when we are told that what we are doing is bad...
we choose to think that the person do not understand...
we choose to think that the person is attacking us...
we choose to see that as attack rather than concern.
when a change occur... ever wondered if thats right?
ever wondered if you can actually control the situation?
ever wondered if the change will affect anything/anyone?
ever wondered if the regrets that comes aft is something we
cannot afford to pay? ever wondered how nice it was if the
change didn't take place. Ever wondered if we can all be
happy with what we have.
I guess we can nvr understand life... nvr understand ourselves
nvr understand our friends.. our family or anyone...
its not because its complicated... nothing is complicated..
unless we believed that it is.. Most of the time we choose
to make believe...
Make believe that doing what we are doing now is right
Make believe that you know what you really want in life
Make believe that you know urself so well
Make believe that you are really happy
Make believe that you can't do certain things
Make believe that life is doing well
Make believe that life is a bitch
Make believe that changing to what you are is cool
Make believe that being in the fastlane is the way of life
Make believe that taking risk is what you are living for
Make believe that you will nvr regret
Make believe that you are above the rest
Make believe that things happens for a reason
Make believe that sometimes in life you have no choice.
But we nvr try to Make believe to see the truth
Yes not even me...
Maybe that explain why suicide happens
ppl make believe that their lives has come to an end
i believe that almost everyone comes to that stage
its whether u have the courage to execute it.
Maybe we shld all learn to not treasure anything we have in life
Take everything for granted n let the animals eat our conscience
and waste our lives away.
What do we really want in life
| The.Goodbye. 5/08/2006 11:08:00 AM |
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Sunday, May 07, 2006
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got woken up by my mum at 9+..
when i slpt at 6+am yesterday..
asking me some qns...
den telling me abt this pair of heels
she bought.. that is in fashion now.
.....
couldn't slp back.. so nua on the bed
den decided to play SIMS..n then
discovered.. my previous saved file is
gone as well......
i m so gona be lack of slp today..
damn
| The.Goodbye. 5/07/2006 12:51:00 PM |
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Saturday, May 06, 2006
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friendster sucks.
fucking lag.
my blogger is in blue?
wat the fuck
some ass is slping again
my laptop's songs and all
my previous photos are all gone
yes.. tmd..
ok i m going to watch my dvds n
play my sims.
supposed to do my work f.u.c.k.
n oh.. my sec sch.. has changed alot.
so much better.. than the past.
| The.Goodbye. 5/06/2006 03:02:00 PM |
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i just threw away a slice of papaya my mum left for me..
don't ask me why... just a sudden heat of passion. LOL
* pls take note *
MY laptop is not a camera...
n yah some 'idiot' kinda ...
hmm reboot my whole com?
when trying to help me change
my name.. hmmm yah.. LOL
later is election day..
boy m i 'excited' like fuck.
Poots Ass Paikia
get the meaning?...
fucking tired....
| The.Goodbye. 5/06/2006 02:19:00 AM |
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Friday, May 05, 2006
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the blog is up n functioning well on mac finally
i tink i will make more amendments once i get
some damn softwares..to work on.
n yes if ur wondering i m doing my blog during
working hours.
n no.. i m not free.. at work... infact fucking busy..
but then.. again... there is always lunchtime.. n
times when i dun feel like doing the damn work.
| The.Goodbye. 5/05/2006 04:28:00 PM |
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Thursday, May 04, 2006
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fuck.
tried my best to make this blog mac friendly.
fucking tired.. alrdy
will arrange the damn alignment later.
| The.Goodbye. 5/04/2006 04:02:00 PM |
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Wednesday, May 03, 2006
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F.U.C.K.
the day was all good till
Vincent's msn window pop up
yes whenever that happens
nothing good will follow..
i wonder whats up with them
over at malaysia.. fucking attitude
problem.. fucking spoiler
now the gd part.
i got my haircut.. finally
yesterday 'celebration' was
pretty funny.. haha
i like the comments said.
we shld do it more often!
i m so fucking tired.. i need to slp
argh.
| The.Goodbye. 5/03/2006 11:58:00 AM |
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Tuesday, May 02, 2006
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ok time now 10.26am
34mins more till the doomsday meeting.
i m fucking nervous..
i lost a few of my pictures that i've saved
of the website using the print screen function.
i knew someting will screw up.
actually i lost quite alot.. from 10 pics of the
mock website i've done.. to now only 3... fuck.
i feel like puking- izit over nervous effects?
oh man.. i m alrdy freaking out when i imagine myself
in the meeting room.. i can't imagine myself really be
inside... ok.. i shall stop being such a puss..
i know that i can do it... i have the ability to. always have
| The.Goodbye. 5/02/2006 10:28:00 AM |
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is today a happy day? I don't know man..
i got the speakers..
i got the game
i don't have the bag i wanted.
i can't find a mouse.
and now the laptop is full of some poot's
photo...
i wana order the damn bag online.
f.u.c.k.
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ok i just ordered it online..
its gona cost me 133.47
i haven add the tax... n GST?
the cost of the damn bag is only 80+
it better come bfore the stocks hits the local stores
i like it when u put it this way val
[Jon.. says:
i guess patience has its virtue..
[Jon.. says:
but money has its power
[Jon.. says:
haha
no not saying i have money... but
i duno it just make sense.. LOL
so today.. my total expenditure.. is
hmmm.. close to 500? sigh... what a day..
i haven bought my mouse yet.
| The.Goodbye. 5/02/2006 12:47:00 AM |
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Monday, May 01, 2006
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I M THE HAPPIEST PERSON ALIVE!!!!yes i m f.u.c.k.i.n.g.H.a.p.p.y.
no i m serious.. hahahaha
words just can't express how i m feeling.
i type up my presentation piece already..
but i tink i need some improvements.. will
do it tml outside i guess.. haha
was out with my parents.... yah woke up at 11.45..
saw the msg.. fr my dad.. meet u at far east 12.15...
you duno how i freaked! yah sms can't wake me up for nutz
i need call.. u know like ring ring? needless to say.. took
a cab down...and oh i treat them to some really nice beef noodles!!
at bugis!!! yes my treat... i m just feeling happy.. can't stop
smiling.. ... ... ... haha
BUT ITS ALRITE COS AFT REACHING TOWN... ONLY GOOD THINGS HAPPENED!
YES REMEMBER MY PREVIOUS POST ABT 1K.. YES ITS SETTLE!!! ITS LIKE
WOOOO!wooo!WOOO!wooo! YES NO MORE DIFFERENCE! HAHAHA
well tml.. is gona be an even better day!!!!!! yes tml is shopping time
acessories shopping time!! can't wait lar.. biangz..
i discovered its not so bad to spend some family time together.. sometimes..
| The.Goodbye. 5/01/2006 12:20:00 AM |
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