i think this time i've over-estimated myself and my abilities
i miss my A.P. soo much now
| The.Goodbye. 9/28/2006 03:50:00 PM |
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Tuesday, September 26, 2006
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HAPPY 3RD MONTHSARY TO THE Ps!
hehs its our 3rd mth together le.. time seems to pass by so fast.. when we are together! n i can nvr get enough of my A.P.!
i love you my A.P. i hope you like the card. heh we had dinner/dim sum at East Coast HK cafe.. [their food are way better then their dim sum]
heh we exchanged gifts there.. hehs A.P. i love the T-Shirt!!! n the CUTE CARD LAR! hehs.. muacks.. missing my A.P. sooo mucn now!
The Ring-er t-shirt worz i like it sooo much!!! muacks A.P.!
SEE THE CARD CAREFULLY! Its 2 girls worz.. GGR WORZ so cute my A.P.! muacks!
A.P. you are the one who put a smile on my face the one that bring meaning into my life i love you.
| The.Goodbye. 9/26/2006 12:59:00 AM |
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Friday, September 22, 2006
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Keane Obession.. Don't be surprise if i copy the whole of his new album.. HA
I think you know, because it's old news The people you love are hard to find So i think if I were in your shoes I would be kind
I look out for you Come rain come shine What good does it do?
I guess i'm a toy that is broken I guess we're just older now
I want to stay another season See summer upon this sorry land So don't dust off your gun Without a reason you understand
I look out for you Come rain come shine What good does it do?
I guess i'm a toy that is broken I guess we're just older now
Who says a river can't leave it's waters? Who says you walk in a line? Who says a city can't change it's borders? Who says your mine?
I look out for you Come rain come shine What good does it do?
I guess i'm the record your tired of I guess were just older now I guess i'm a toy that is broken I guess we're just older now
| The.Goodbye. 9/22/2006 01:45:00 AM |
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Wednesday, September 20, 2006
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Play the video bfore reading the post
i don't know what is wrong with me actually i do. but what can i do abt it. its these times that makes me wonder why i m still living. i love the ppl around me my family, friends n my A.P. but is it enough for me or them?
i know n understand somethings are nvr enough n its ok.. or shld i say it has to be ok.. i just need to be told.thats all.simple.
i just feel like i've been put on Play mode on my mind most of the time i dun even know what i m tinking nor doing [other then times like meeting my A.P.] i dun wan to be played. the outcome is highly sucidial played again n again.. the same old routine. depression over n over again.. the memories over n over again the pain the grief.. n of cos the happiness. but its a nature of human to brood over sadness rather than happiness..
maybe i m just born in the wrong era.. or maybe i shldn't have been borned. maybe. n maybe that. i duno too many maybe.. nothing is perfect i know i can't be so i can't expect others to be. we are all flawed in our own ways. i m.. flawed in too many ways till the point that i scare myself..
i can say half the time i m bloggin i duno what m i actually pen-ing down.. my thoughts? or my make - believe thoughts?
i just need you to know that i love u[A.P.] i duno where is this depression going. but my love for u has always been there. n it still is..
all i want is just death. i tink i serve my punishment enough. i guess i was born to serve my sins. i hope it wun be too long. ------------------------------------------------------- I wake up, it's a bad dream, No one on my side, I was fighting But I just feel too tired to be fighting, guess I'm not the fighting kind.
Well maybe there´s a God above But all I've ever learned from love Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you And it's not a cry that you hear at night and it's not somebody who's seen the light It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
| The.Goodbye. 9/20/2006 01:54:00 PM |
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Friday, September 15, 2006
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Keane Obession This song shld have come out earlier man HA!
You must think I'm a fool So prosaic and awkward and all D'you think you've got me down? D'you think I've never been out of this town?
Do I seem too eager to please to you now? You don't know me at all I can't turn it on, turn it off like you now I'm not like you now
Now you're here I bet you're wishing you could disappear I'm trying to be kind I get the feeling you're just killing time
You look down on me Don't you look down on me now You don't know me at all A slap in the face In the face for you now Just might do now
You're leaving so soon Never had a chance to bloom But you were so quick To change your tune Don't look back If I'm a weight around your neck Cos if you don't need me I don't need you
Leaving so soon, soon Leaving, leaving so, soon
You're leaving so soon Never had a chance to bloom But you were so quick To change your tune Don't look back If I'm a weight around your neck Cos if you don't need me Then I don't need you
| The.Goodbye. 9/15/2006 07:36:00 PM |
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Tuesday, September 12, 2006
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Is it still shinning like the sun? Its like plan drawing yes. i dun plan.. needless to say draw..
What you do No one can decide it's up to you and who you are is what you choose These times when the world falls apart Make us who we are
one man gives while the others won't bend The end. has only BEGUN..
i miss my A.P. so much. i wished.. we can live in the JB phrase.. n not get out of it. love to have my A.P. beside me when i slp and when i wake up.. can't wait to see u later!
will Blog abt the JB trip once i get my hands on those photos!
| The.Goodbye. 9/12/2006 01:46:00 PM |
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Thursday, September 07, 2006
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what i need right now.. is a higher paying job lar.. i m being sucked dried by the damb laptop.. n my non-stop cab rides [aren't they all my fault due to lack of self-control] argh.. feeling so damn sianz..
its only the start of the month... somebody kill me... just kill me! but one thing for sure.. i know my cabs ride is either gona cut down or the fares gona be soo much lesser.. haaa.. thats one thing to look forward too
n also another thing to look forward to with A.P. is TML! yes TML!!! is the day! where i can totally enjoy with my one n only A.P.! hehs.. we can relax n enjoy le! missing my piggy sooomuch
| The.Goodbye. 9/07/2006 10:45:00 AM |
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006
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love it.
| The.Goodbye. 9/06/2006 04:10:00 PM |
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Tuesday, September 05, 2006
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Watch the devil wears prada the storyline.. simple yet very real yes its abt fashion world[which i dun care] its about how a girl who got the job that girls will kill to get it.. but so happens she wasn't one of those girls. but as time go by cos of her wanting to be accepted by the ppl n the industry.. she changed herself.. devoted herself to the darn job... so obessed with trying to fit in and mingle with the ppl she meets in the fashion industry..[tho' it was so called for her future career.. ] yes she was glamourous i duno abt the money part [ but she was wearing realy nice branded clothes either from the company itself or what] she lost her personal life.. she lost her friends.. n of cos.. her bf who finally couldn't take it. [ of cos there need to be a bf.. thats how the storyline goes ] the bf couldn't understand why she let the boss jerks her around... like an idiot.. [perharps commitment to the job? but thats stupid] but in the end of cos happy ending.. lar she quit the job got back with her bf.. and she got her dream job due to her ex-boss who put in a good word for her..so ya but wake up to reality that kind of thing dun happen much so overall the show was ... erm ok lor. HA
smug as i mite sound i like be get the upper hand. n i make full use of it.. like my last company. n i left aft a short period.. .that job was just full of shit.. i lost my personal life..[think the brothers knew] i am an arse. without a doubt.. n soomehow i wonder what have i got myself into? but then again ajob is a job. keep it yes lose it then too bad..find another one thats my logic. haaaa
set asail on a new journey hope its a good one. shit ass
| The.Goodbye. 9/05/2006 05:09:00 PM |
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Monday, September 04, 2006
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its been awhile... firstly.. i m missing me A.P. so much.. she keep insisting on accompanying me.. to the hospital for the treatment for the stupid warts on my thumb...
i tot it was a once .. n thats all treatment.. session... but NO!.. its a few session.... cos.. for my case.. its kinda deep?.. i've already 3... appointments booked.. so that means at least 3appointment.. to cure the.. damn thumb..
i shall tell u how the gruesome procedure is like.. first.. consutation with the doc.. i rem the doc extact words - you wun feel pain lar maybe just too cold.. den .. proceed to the treatment room... where the nurse says this - there are 2 steps.. one will be we will slice off your skin... and spray nitrogen gas on it.. the slicing part mite hurt alil but the spraying part will hurt alot.... notice the difference? the doc.. not pain... just too cold.. the nurse..will hurt alot.. i was begining.. to worry... alil..haa
the nurse took out this BLADE... small blade.. odd shaped.. n start slicing off my skin [ i tell u .. it looks like sum sick film... if u off the lights.. and smear blood all over the background and table.... n of cos the nurse. slicing with her face.. smiling.. evil-ishly haaaaaa...] she kept asking me if i m alright.. but the fact is i dun feel any pain at all... even tho' the blood is oozzing out.. haaa [ i have thick skin i reckon ]... so naturally i tot aiyah... slicing not pain the nitro gas.. wun hurt that much lar... Gawd noes i was sooo wrong... once she start spray the gas... i nearly died.. haaa yes.. i duno how to describe.. but the pain goes way DEEP into my thumb... man.. then the nurse explain... its -98degrees.. n she is spraying it into my blood vessels or blood watever sels.. thats why it will hurt alot... she keep telling me.. ok a few more sprays..[nabei duno say a few more sprays how many times liaoz..haaa...] but ok lar she is very nice explaining to me.. abt how to take care n all..so yah the fact that there are at least 3 more session to go.. kinda.. makes me.. ulitmate sianz... cos u know .. its no joke.. its really painfull. haaa
so right now i wana say thanks to the ppl who asked me to 'aiyah just cut off the extra skin it will go away one lar' esp my mum... cos cutting the extra skin off.. IS THE ONE THING THE NURSE AND THE DOC SAY NOT TO DO.. COS IT WILL MAKE IT WORSE AND WORSE.. N MAKE THE WARTS GO DEEPER.... n thus.. this is way i need a few treatments... so how shld i thank u guys? i know.. i will buah my thumb all over u ppl!.. esp places where there is an open wound. [ P.S. my thumb is kinda highly infectious.. of cos when the wound is open... rite now.. its.. healing so its not]
P.S. i m hungry.. haaa n i m missing my ever Dearest Sweetest cutest A.P.!!! can't wait to see ya later
