Tuesday, September 30, 2008
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was browsing my photobucket in search of my blog photo size ...
so i can change the one over --->
and look what i stumbled on!!!!
gawd this photo i look LESS FAT ALOT LOR...
this is probably.. a few years ago..
those were the days...
it was during christmas...
i still look so young.. hahaha BTH....
and last..
a stupid photo of me now...
my brother take.. one( my blood related bro)
| The.Goodbye. 9/30/2008 01:18:00 AM |
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Monday, September 29, 2008
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WOOOOOO
what a weekend...
training on sat...
aft that..!!!!
met Yuanling and rusty aft like duno how long..
with PEI!!!
hehs.. for a short while lar..
then met vikki too! and we all went to Ding Tai Fung
TOGETHER... hahaha all 5 of us. hmmmm.
then me and vikki went off earlier.. cos we are watching MAMA MIA!!!!
heh... the movie is 9.45pm
we left ard 9.15-9.20
and then.... Miss Vikki.. went to Cotton on body.. to buy her..
under thingys.....
and... she only came out.. 9.45pm
and we rush from Wisma to SHAW.....
and guess what? i FELL... at the escalators...
tmd sian...... all that Mafia Vikki fault!
wahahaha well i tink that MAMA Mia... is...... FANASTIC!.
haha i just feel so happy throughout the entire show!
feel like dancing.. hahahaha love ABBA! heh....
i am tempted to watch the play..hahaha well i love plays...
and oh...
that vikki.. has my ring and her ring is with me
and i just discovered.. its alil tooo big.tsk....
ok sunday...
Morning Training!.... super... duper burnt...
i look like red... red red red....
and that new urbanmale sandal BROKE AGAIN!.
tmd.. duno what to get liao lar... sian...
today training is like shiong....
maybe cos 5 men is really alil hard bah..
and BUTT HURTS LAR...... seat pad no use for this.
and my back,shoulders,back,shoulders,arm,back hurts..
haha ok lar only shoulders and back lar...
oh wellllll but well i m loving it!
at least i am .... more Tannnned... Black! and Red!
lol
then aft that.. came home. rest awhile.. applied aloe vera...lotion!
wooooo~
then chat with mummy online.. and she tot i just woke up...
-_-||| i'm not like her lor......
then aft that went to meet flo,jaime,edna and meimei for Steamboat!
then...... bought ticks for movie..My best friend's girl....
then we had some time bfore the show so we went... shopping alil..
and guess what... me,flo,jaime and edna alll bought a pair of spec/sunglass..
lol.. impulsive shoppers... LOL BTH.........
then went for the movie..
i tell u.. bugis.. cinema sucks.. i am nvr going back there to watch..
the seats are so OLD..... and high... and SHAKY!
and i tink the movie...... not good.. quite boring.. most of the part.
and the 2 assholes sitting next to me ain't making it better...
i duno if they are deaf or what.. have to talk so long.. and i duno if they
got ants on their butts.. cannot stop moving and end up shaking the entire chair.
i actually watch until i abit giddy..... muthafarkers.
well verdict.... MAMA Mia is definitely Worth the watch and i tink u all shld!
but.. my best friend's girl... nah not really.. the storyline is quite typical to me..
and its actually pretty boring........
tmr is another day at work....
so slpy.. and tired... wed is a HOLIDAY!
HEH :)
ok lar..
thats all i guess..
its hard to stop myself from falling for u..
each time i see u.. it makes it even harder.. but i dun wan it to happen.
not now.. probably not nvr.
cos now i am so unsure.... i feel i dun have time....
work.. work.. then weekends... training.. i need time for myself.
if only 1 day has more than 24hours...
plus its not helping when something else is going on...
sigh but honestly i cannot really be bothered lar.
i also duno what i am talking abt.
but well i am satisfied with now for the least..
i am much better off.
| The.Goodbye. 9/29/2008 01:20:00 AM |
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Friday, September 26, 2008
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OK.. tmr ... wait no.. later
early in the morning got MEETING AT TUAS....
sad case......... 9.30 leh.. have to meet my bosses
at woodland.. but ok lar they ask me take cab and take reciept..lol
and they keep apologising............ where got such nice boss?
now i really hate to be so multi-talented....
LOL BHB i know.. but its becos i am multi-talented.. i need to go
to the meeting... BCOS I KNOW HOW TO DO WEB TOO..SIGH..........
but its ok... i love my job. lol..
its quite a funny day today.....
someone whom i know for long..
gives me this really weird expression on her face.. and she ask..
what happen to me?...
and she listed out 10things abt why... she tinks i am weird... haha
i shall go askher to list it out if she still remembers
but well.... i also duno whats wrong.. i just feel much happier.. now..
lol hence the more.. happy colours... weird lar... i also duno..
now that she mention i do feel alil weird. lol
but well.. she did mention.. that i look alil skinner.. hahaha
esp my wrist.. lol
ok.. side note... just this tues... me and my boss had a very funny conversation... aft working hours..
(8+... yes i am still at work)
boss - your got any plans aft work? ( to both me and my AD)
we - nope.. dun have..
Boss- OK! (grins!) wana go for DINNER?? PEPPER CRAB?????
me- err.. i have dinner at home...
boss-... oh..........hmmmmmmm (paused for awhile) tmr LEH???(Grins again!)
me- i meeting my friends ... ar....( with the really sad andreally really paisey reply..)
boss- orh... (pouting..)
-less than 5mins later-
boss- ok Chris.. lets go eat... Crab.. now.. eat abit.. me and the other boss also need to go home and eat, you eat abit ok we all just eat abit lar.. just go eat ok? ( WIDE GRIN )
me and AD-..... LAUGHS....... out loud and say yeah ok lets go...! lol
we ordered.. 3CRABS.... 1 BIG PLATE OF MEE GORENG.... A PLATE OF THE FRIED YU TIAO... AND SATAYS.....
abit lor... really lor... eat until so damn full....
go home still have to eat dinner..
they so damn cute lar.......... hahahaha
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ok the BBQ..
i very lazy to upload so many pics..
so i am a sebei vainpot. so i upload those pics with me..
wheni am not lazy i will try to upload the rest...
if not u guys can go syl's or edna's blog and see the rest
of the photos.. cos they are 2 hardworking ppl who blog!
so here goes.
i tink this is taken before me and flo... abt to start the fire ( modelling picture.. LOL)
this is obviously aft...
... edna say this picture.. i look cute... omg.. its not supposed to be this way...
we are kind souls.. we helped.. the young girls beside us.. start fire..... kena called chee hong tho... CB.. somemore is edna who say they very ke lian have start fire.. when we like almost finish bbq-ing lor.. ask us go help one.....bth..
aft bbq we drop by Alison's 21st b'day!!
HAPPY B'day Allie!!!
and we saw TEE YU THERE!... so long liao man..
and of cos.. the little AH LIAN.. charlene..
ok i am heading to bed.. need to be at meeting later SIGH!
| The.Goodbye. 9/26/2008 02:21:00 AM |
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Thursday, September 25, 2008
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i seriously duno..
when are u gona stop all these?
WHEN?
its been mths..( i dun even rem how many months )
and u ARE STILL TALKING ABT IT TO PEOPLE!
u are so damn good at twisting facts.
i really really kowtow to u.
u shld just go be a script writer lar..
i tink ur beautiful lies and imagination and twisting of facts can really make good stories...
aft all those that we have been through ar... this is what i get.
thanks leh. really... ur bloody exp close to 1000dollar b'day gift.
being said as if it has nvr happen? -_-.....
the account no. u have NVR gave me depite COUNTLESS REQUEST abt it...
also kena STAB by that...-_-||.....
and the most classic one... the one that i BROKE INTO YOUR HOUSE...
that one is like really ...... FUNNY LAR.... seriously.......
i am working... from morning... till evening.. and at that time EVERYDAY i meet my friends till midnite.... i wonder how my soul leave my BODY TO ACTUALLY BREAK INTO UR HOUSE... and WRITE SOMETHING ... ON THAT WHITEBOARD....-_-||||||
its so funny that i rem one of my friend actually SAY SUE HER FOR SLANDER! I CAN BE UR WITNESS WE HANG OUT EVERY SINGLE DAY!
i must clarify... the part where i want to kill myself.. its was when everything is CRASHING DOWN.... my blood clot that i am dealing with alone .. and our problems that time and when u said its over ( thank you for that thou... :) ) just seems everything is really crashing down and i just lost it... like lost it.. man..it was stupid ... definitely is.. man i even got a scar to rem it by. but somehow/sometimes i wished i did. then at least no need to let u stab me so hard and maybe i will rem u as someone who is SO MUCH BETTER ....
well it was not my most GLAM period.. but well its alrdy over and done with.. nothing i can do to solve that. but one thing i must clear up is... really.. if i was just trying ... to kill myself so u will come back to me.. i dun even need to climb anything i just say .. threaten enough liao. or i just pick up ur calls and threaten u enough liao... but i didn't pick up ur calls.. the only time i really picked up was when u go and TELL ALL MY BROTHERS.... and i was so piss and i was actually scolding u for telling my brothers rather thatn tell ing what the hell i am doing....which make me even more want to kill myself. i didn't EVEN PICK UP UR CALLS!.. u called my house and WOKE MY WHOLE FAMILY UP...... and tell my parents that they need to find me... in the end i hang up my house phone so u can't call through..... and pei called me and told me u are coming down.. i was screwed up at that point.. i was a coward just want to run away from all these by killing myself.. it was stupid i nvr deny that. and it was a really selfish act... to tell u the truth the hardest thing to deal with .. was the clot... was how helpless i felt. that one simple fall.... a simple fall can actually make my whole life turn around...just like that...........and the reason of my fall?... i nvr said it... out openly before... but the reason behind my fall was partly cos of u..( YAH SO STUPID AGAIN!!!) just becos it was just becos i wanted to 'save' the tibits i bought for u i slip and fell.. and knock in THAT CORNER.... yah.. thats how i got the clot. so how does this make u happier? that u are the cause of what is happening to me now.. I guess now maybe u guys will understand why i broke .. so badly cos i really duno how to tell anyone that i fell cos i was trying to 'save' something i bought for her lor... and thats the main reason i didn't tok abt it to u either.how to say? like.. so... HUH...... well now tink back its really kinda STUPID and... FARNIE LAR...
but well the clotS has its period of ups and down...(oh there is more than one now) first it was really bad... nose bleed.. black outs.. been going to the hospital.. been very guai.... now the condition sort of stablise..still have but doc say it seems to stop spreading... hope it will start reducing... (operation... is very risky....and the fact that if it failed it mite not kill me ... it mite make me into an idiot... thats what stopping me from doing the operation lar....)but now.. just going with the flow.. trying to live a better life!.... hahaha what nonsense... appointment in 3weeks time...Woot!
ok i tink topic drift.. ok back.
u know hor.. u hor..
i tink u very free...and have nothing that is very happening .. happening in ur life now.
(quoted by my friend)
to have to keep talking abt what is happen.. aft MTHS..
i usually can't vent for long abt this..
now no anger le...lol.... haha so short lived.
i know u are the kind that need attention..
there is many ways to get it.. i duno if getting it by
beating someone down with lies and make up stories
make the attention given more thrilling or what. but
sometimes u know the lies and make up stories
hurt ppl?
i duno if i can say that i really hate u so much..
but the things that u said doesn't make me ok with u.
u feel fun saying all these? do u? if u do.. really good for u.
i'm glad that i am not like u then. i dun thrive on ppl's misery.
i still thank you for the 1year plus we had together..
it was really fun and really nice.. truly. i feel loved..and i've loved.
and i am grateful for all these.. things that u have done.. and how sweet u were
i will prolly nvr forget. but all those memories are starting to fog up.
with whatever u are doing now. i really dun want to hate u till the day that i die but u are making me do that.
and apparently now.. besides being a psycho.. and have become a stalker.
i dun rem when i was.. not even pei.. when i was so close to her.. i tok to her everyday..
we msn.. all the time.. and all... i was either at the really fucked up workplace or with syl they all or pei..even lunchtime i meet them.... constantly i was with someone... how do i even do that.. and turns out i was the one being stalked..... its just funny how things turn one big round and i end up being labeled.
i am really tired of all these.. this is the last time i am speaking of this.. the last time.. is this old news.. its long gone and i've long moved on... (well unless i hear something from my really big circle of really bitchy friends who tell me things abt what u say again...) i tink its time for u to move on from this situation too. don't u feel tired abt it? becos i am.. do u even rem what version of the story u tell ppl? wun u be afraid when one day ur stories got mixed up and ppl realised that u have been making up stories all these while scares u?
well a last thank you to u.... for all the times we had.. and the CLOT u gave me.. and also for free-ing me and let me see how much better off i am right now. Thank you for everything :).
somehow i feel my life is coming together...not like its a perfect life..
but my new job.. is prolly what i really hope to have.. ( other than the fact i dun want to be a graphic designer )
i have super nice boss.. who are a gay couple... who will force us to eat pepper crab cos he got craving..(which is SO CUTE!)
and how bitchy and nice they are... and an AD.... who ar...... cannot stop tellng me which type of guy he like... and how RANDOM he is.. but its all fun lar.. haha. i am really happy and grateful abt it. altho the workload is crazy.. and deadlines which is close to impossible...its the best job i've ever had. :) and i am really grateful for it. well the one thing abt the job is i can nvr tell u what time i finish work..... lol.. cos i got too much work to do...:)
well other than that the rest are not really smooth but its still alriite.. lar.. i actually feel happy... haha i duno what i am feeling lar.. but its a good feeling..lar.. haha
thats all i guess
| The.Goodbye. 9/25/2008 02:20:00 AM |
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Monday, September 22, 2008
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just when u tink/assume something of someone's actions.
and u come to a judgement that u are disgusted with it.
rem this.
there is exactly another same person who tinks exactly like u
judging right back at you.
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somethings i will nvr understand.
somethings will nvr change no matter how much time it has been given.
somethings... of many things... will always be.
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have been sick on and off recently
and job and every other thing else are not making it any easier for me to get well.
read jaime blog..old entries and yes i do wonder like her.
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i really hate it when i say i am busy.. but being tot otherwise.
doesn't mean i used to be super free at my previous jobs...
means i can't be fucking busy at my current one.
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please show some respect to urself and others.
i don't even know what to talk to u abt anymore.
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dun assume any of the parts above is directed at anyone or any events.
some dun even make sense to me.
so yah.
don't get too sensitive over things that i blog abt.
and i guess we all know the only thing that i will openly diss and blog and humiliate abt
is that big ugly horrible monster and super fake 2 -faced, will do anything for money liar.
and also another person not so openly abt.. but most of u guys noes lar
esp meimei.. cos she just asked me recently nia
P.S... i love u all and cheers.
i can see how the world is crashing and how everyone is playing their parts on it.
yes both u and me.
| The.Goodbye. 9/22/2008 03:01:00 AM |
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Friday, September 19, 2008
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today is such a happy day!
had subway for lunch!!!!!!!
WOOOT!
and.....
POPEYE's for DINNER!
wah....
then had chocolates!...
hahaha....
hmmm
tmr need to attend event with my boss aft work...
sian................
then mite be meeting sam sam and his colleagues for drinks!
haha see how lar..
i still need to do my freelance logo...
hahaha and i am so tired.
oh i went to candy empire today at airport!
and finally bought a new shaver!
hahah..
ok lar lame lar
but the lady at watson is really nice! and funny lor
work is .. really... bad.
really projects over projects..
sigh... and its breathing down my neck..
plus i am so tired everyday.
sigh.
u know chinese songs are so sad sometimes.
hear le also tulan. LOL
i've been listening to plenty or old songs.
my 'mummy' say why i suddenly so retro.. and send me
the money money money song. knn.
btw i love my mummy very much..
she helps me download a tonne of songs..
she is the best!! love her to the core!
she is the mummy pirate..
the best mummy ever.
and u know what? my mummy is so hip!
she goes to yoga! ..
i got such hip and cool mummy. how to not love her?
LOL.....
(i am not toking abt my real mum....)
but my mummy not very good.... everyday nag me to slp early
but dun want to tuck me to slp.. dun want to read me story
dun want to kiss my forehead and off the lights....
and tells me all these only happens in fantasy world.....
but then... we are in fantasy world ar.. thats why she is my mummy..
and she calls me crazy.... sigh.... sometimes i wonder if my mummy
hates or love me... sigh.. but no matter what....
i love my mummy... cos she will help me download songs...
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
and also listen to my lame nonsense and rubbish insane talk.
lol
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i really duno why the trap of urs only have troubles coming out of it.
it seems like its always u that makes everything weird and bad.
somehow i am getting sick of it..cos we are all grown ups alrdy
this shldn't happen to often anymore.
| The.Goodbye. 9/19/2008 02:22:00 AM |
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Wednesday, September 17, 2008
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i so wana grab my throat out and give it a good bloody wash
to clear all the bloody phlegm OUT OF IT!
and yes i am still in the office..
i didn't wax my hair today.. super flat.
abit cannot be bothered..
so stress and too much work to do.
like OMG....
OMG...( i suddenly feel so bimbotic...)
HEHS...
i'm crazy..
i dun want to do work alrdy.
i want to go home... (cries!!!)
i want to eat burger!
i want to tok properly!
i want stop coughing my lungs out!
i want to my beautiful voice back!
i want to be WELL AGAIN!
lastly.. i want to be a super hero..
so i can finish my work ultra fast...
ultra good.... and can shun bian go fight
villains... save the world and also.....
kill and torture ppl i hate!
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA...
i think i am almost going insane with the amount of work
i have at work.. and i tink that i am excessively being
excessive... LOL
ok nonsense.
STOP..
i love FLASH DANCE..
i LOVE JENNIFER BEALS..
just hate the spandex
i like you for sure.
but what is happening is a damn turn off.
what is it that brain of urs is thinking?
i wonder.
i just think i have been gross out enough for the time being.
- somehow i know who i love the most.
( i am just paranoid but i need to clarify.. this all the time.. its not her.. not that liar.. cos well she tinks that i am still hung up on her or tinks that i tink that she is still hung up on me... either way i rather this be clear up.. to hell u tink i am )
| The.Goodbye. 9/17/2008 06:53:00 PM |
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Monday, September 15, 2008
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burnt..
soccer...
basketball..
went to support the race.
all in one day.. from morn to nite.
my feets are sore...
so freaking tired.
my face is burnt... so sore..
and so is my shoulders..
let me show u what it means
see my tattoo like got 2 colours like that......... and ppl.. the actual colour is more chao tar... man.. this one got the ceiling light..
yeah the singlet mark... dun ask me.. whats the scar... aye...
ok thats abt all.. i am so freaking tired.. tmr is gona be a hectic day at work.
like always..
| The.Goodbye. 9/15/2008 02:59:00 AM |
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Sunday, September 14, 2008
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I haven fell sooo sick for quite awhile.
so sick.. so sucky.
i really hate flu...
cough... sore throat...
but then again i tink no one likes it anyway.
yes nonsense.. and lame again.
and yes... Mr [X] has recovered (80%) and make a comeback!...
anyway... herstory..... was BORING...
whats new?
went with... C...mary... vikki and C's friend
BORING LAR....
and... i've been drinking beers recently....
since last week.....
hahaha what a change....
not that i like.. but yah...
i tink i still dun really like it lar.
hahaha
can someone turn off the tap on my nose?
Ccb....
my hair is soooo damaged.
- somehow i duno what else more to say...
it seems like it nvr goes into ur head anyway...
and u only want to talk abt ur problems...
they are problem.. cos u let them be.
so whats more for me to say for u to listen?
Jaded-
Labels: quit
| The.Goodbye. 9/14/2008 02:33:00 AM |
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Friday, September 12, 2008
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i shld have picked up the calls
i shld have bothered.
we shldn't have that tiff..
i'm sorry for treating you this way.
but its alil too late now.
yes i am to blame.
maybe in another situation i would have..
if i didn't have another person in my heart
(u all know who is it... lar huh...definitely not that liar ar..)
i know i would, you would probably to be the best.
but i'm sorry.
i just can't.
i'm too tired of all these.
i dun want anything.
i just want my life back.
well i do want her..
even though everyone tells me its not worth it.
dun even bother.
well... i'm nt sure where i am at.
and honestly... i can't really be bothered.
some how nothing really matters much to me now.
this is the last time i am speaking of this.
so dun.. ask me anything.
| The.Goodbye. 9/12/2008 04:05:00 AM |
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Tuesday, September 09, 2008
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Hi PPL.. i am back
yes i haven blog for awhile...
had an issue with my fingers..
and bandages.. and blah blah blah.
well.....
i didn't post abt alot of stuffs
like...
i went for the Nike Run
as a volunteer
pretty fun and cool.
like the TEE.. hahaha
will post the photos soon.. someday.
LOL
then.. i dun really rem..much
only rem the recent one..
which is..............................
I WENT SHOPPING!!!!
YES MR [X] WENT SHOPPING....
not like she haven been on shopping.
its just that usually i wun buy much stuff
cos i have to spend money on nt only myself but some liar
SO SAT WAS THE MAX!
HAHA AND LACOSTE WAS HAVING SALE...30%
HAHA IF ONLY THEY HAD THE GREEN STRIPES TEE ....
TOO BIG.... I WOULD HAVE BOUGHT BOTH TEES!
NOW I ONLY GOT 1.. sigh..... but nvm .. next time i guess
u know Cotton on is like one of my Fav shop.. bcos....
I LOVE THEIR BERMS!....i tink i could buy up all the designs of their
stripes and checkered berms.. ( i have a thing for stripes and checkered stuffs )
well i bought 2 berms and 1 shirt from there..... wanted to buy this shoe.. but dun have my size..
too big.. SIGH........
and i bought 2 tees from topman..
haha thats the final thing i bought!
so...............
in total i bought
3 Tees...
1 Shirt...
2 berms..
WOOT!.... big burn ... in the pocket.. but well i'm happy!
and oh.. yeah i got my hair... highlighted.. Thanks to C.
yes... bleach 3 times...
yes.. i can feel my scalp lighting up Cigs .. at the same time. lol
Really have to thank C. for spending sooo much time on..
my lil.. pile of hair.. lol
ok i am tired.
like do work non-stop...
at work.. do work...
at home also do work..
helping my friend's project..
edna's friend freelance... company logo...
then may have another freelance coming in..
30-40 pages of layouts.. hurs!
can't imagine how i will be... by then..
but well.....
since is the job find me....... i guess its fated.
( ok tok cork LOL )
ok the end.
i shall go watch... my show.
OH BTW THE CAMERAS HAS ARRIVED!!!
but its with miss Vikki Tan ; mafia boss
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nothing but shit is pouring out ur mouth....
u shld just eat everyone's shits and clean their backside
since ur damn good at it..
and save ur money to buy ur coach and branded stuffs.
and put them on you hopefully they will rub off the shits in ur mouth.
| The.Goodbye. 9/09/2008 02:28:00 AM |
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Wednesday, September 03, 2008
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i am suddenly feeling so troubled...
sigh i feel like shit..
i am so tied up with work...
i have an injured finger and thumb ..
yet i dun have the time to go treat it..
unless i take leave... which i dun realy want to
becos its realy too busy and too much work to do.
i really hate this... i really do.
i want to fix it by this weekend..
i dun want to miss training again cos of it.
simple things like this i am troubled.
i duno why i can't even make a choice in this
treat my health or work?
why? why can't i?
i can't control the clot.
i can't control anything.
i just can't...
can't even decided health or job.
it suck suck suck..
i really does.
Maybe i'm just blind.
hold me when i'm here..
right me when i'm wrong.
while i'm still here
but dun love me when i'm gone.
| The.Goodbye. 9/03/2008 03:16:00 AM |
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i wanted to blog.
but i realised i duno what to say.
hmmmmmmmmm
so....
thats it.
LOL
i tink the best thing i am at.. is
injuring myself..
finger... thumb...
whats next?
| The.Goodbye. 9/03/2008 02:17:00 AM |
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