Friday, February 27, 2009
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I wonder why the tears are forming.
i wonder why i feel that water is slowly filling up my eyes.
not again.
i hate this.
why.
i need a haircut.
| The.Goodbye. 2/27/2009 06:31:00 PM |
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Wednesday, February 25, 2009
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FUCK FUCK FUCK.
FUCK U.
THE CHANGES U ARE UNHAPPY ABOUT IS
YOUR BF ASK ME TO CHANGE.
AND ITS WHAT YOUR FUCKING NO TASTE CLIENT WANTS.
SO DUN COME AND TALK TO ME LIKE I AM
SOME STUPID ASS THAT DUNO HOW TO DO DESIGN.
COS THE BLOODY LAYOUT U ARE TRYING TO TELL ME
I HAVE DONE IT BUT UR FUCKING CLIENT DID NOT CHOOSE THAT!
FUCK OFF MAN.
WHAT MORE YOU WANT FROM ME?
I DO GRAPHIC, WEB AND NOW EVEN PHOTOSHOOT!
PIECE OF SHIT
| The.Goodbye. 2/25/2009 05:03:00 PM |
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Monday, February 23, 2009
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ram rsam ram......my hand hurts.
why?
wat if ijusy stop livin?
waft if the clot burrst?
wat if?
i gona misss u guyss=. rem it.
i h ate tis.
i hate hate this feeeling.'
fuck iyy
| The.Goodbye. 2/23/2009 05:10:00 AM |
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Friday, February 20, 2009
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Yes the ritual is back again.
today play was boring.
boring boring. boring.
wasn't high ..
i am tired i got tonnes of work to do.
at my breaking point.
i hate this shit.
i need a break.
aRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ok lar today not drunk.
like always.. was never drunk! ok
offfff to bed!
| The.Goodbye. 2/20/2009 04:16:00 AM |
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
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i haven't been bloggin... much recently.
as in proper blogging.
Each time i want to blog.
i end up..didn't
becos of the laziness
and probably the fact that
Sometimes i am holding back in words while typing.
recently, i haven't been what u call happy.
well this may sound confusing.
but i do feel happy .. but then the happiness..
is somehow stained with a tint of sadness.
not that i can't take the sadness.
its just that i duno where the sadness comes from.
and the feeling of feeling really happy yet
at the same time a pinch of sadness
is bringing the mood down.
lucky among all these i dun have gf..
no drama... no rules... no having to worry
who i can go out with and reporting.
omg.. pei! haha u see this. haha
rem u ask me bfore.. lol
Same for work.. i love working here
yet i really hate working here.
I love the environment, the job scope,
the place... just love the job.
but i really cannot stand my AD..
i really can't stand that himbo...
and my 2 really nice bosses who keeps thinking
we are superman. jobs over jobs..nvr once am
i actually free for 1sec.
every single sec i got work to rush.
and most of the time. i have to deal with 2-3 jobs
at the same time with the same submission time.
i tot with time.. i will get used to it.
but now the situation seems otherwise.
i became more.. hot-tempered at work
easily-annoyed..(by the himbo of cos)
more stress with the jobs coming in.
just feel less motivated to rush the job or
to do up a good one. Just feel like this
is telling me.. its about time i end this
line...
i don't know how many ppl know.. but
i hate graphic design.. i really hate it.
lol my only love is fine art. photography,
ceramics, painting(nt that i am good in the last 2)
but i choose to do graphic design as.. i need
to be practical.. i need to survive in this world
of materialism. so i rather go in GD.. do something
that i already hate... to start with.. then going to
commercial photography and kill my passion for photography.
Hard choice to make.
but sometimes i dun deny.. when i finish my work,
see the magazines being printed out.. see my photos published
on magazine.. and my layout/concept being used it does feel
god damn good. the satisfaction is what have been keeping me
alive.. but now for this job.. i am hardly satisfied with my work
simply cos i do not have the time to actually do a proper conceptualised
work. and the satisfaction level is not there.
there are many other things that is bothering me.
but i can't really say it out.
its a familiar thing that everyone has
a pile of secrets that u can tell no one abt.
the skeletons in the closet.
and i think i have quite alot of them
and it has just been filling up.
its nt something bad that i've done
its more of emotions stuffs.
without a doubt.. it has something
to do with my clot.
and its not abt the lame break up with the loser's maid. for sure.
sigh somethings are just so hard to say/explain.
i just wish things were simpl-ier to understand and comprehend.
enough of my emo-ism
now to what i always will blog abt. my life.
let me go way back ( what i rem of cos )
think the past 2 weeks or so..
CNY... was woo hooo..
the gang came over on.. a friday i think..
Syl,Flo,Jaime,calista,pearly,mei,meimei,beatrice,IRIS,xen,carey
i think thats abt all.. to BAI NIEN! and of cos..
play Wii, MJ, Poker and BJ..
(now i am wondering if i have blogged abt it. but watever lar)
most of them left int he morning abt 7am.
it was a fun nite for sure. gambling..
lame-ing.. mj-ing.. pk at Wii-ing.
let me count the times i went clubbing within the last mth.
(means mid jan to mid feb)
thursday at herstory.. with syl,calista,pearly,jaime,jaime's cousin,beatrice
then i tink the following week
wed-attica... pearly and xen
thursday - play - pearly and xen.
fri - Rebel - IRIS, pearly and marilyn
Then come Syl's ki tang day at mambo
11feb.. lol also my MISS AI AI b'day lol (JK)
zouk.. and i am pretty sure.. i couldn't walk straight
and got bruised on the head area..
and no its not cos i fell or was drunk.
i wasn't i swear i was sober, i just can't shut up
nor control my limbs.
it was syl's drunkness bang on my face twice..
and she even kissed me on the cheek too.
(eew) LOL but it was fun.. i must say. lol
all of us club together.. woot!
and i still swear that i am not drunk
i even blogged when i'm home!
then i think the next one was the Vday party
2 queens white party - pearly, jyen, Cecilia was there too
and saw kristen there too.
nothing happening..
except for our miss pearly
who was quite happening that nite.
LOL. the party was alil too warm..
so many ppl was perspiring lol
and u know what.. they dun serve TEQUILA!
ok...
then lets think abt other stuffs..
like ok went training a few times..
went ktv with pearly once.. aft training
her friend supposed to come but last min couldn't make it.
missed training twice.. this mth..
felt like shit. ain't gona miss training anymore.
where is my discipline?
i cannot be so distracted anymore.
focus!
Last but not least.!
Syl's 25th b'day at SENTOSA!
we are omg.. burnt!
most of us were
picnic! swiming.. soaking in the sea..
playing bola..
and we TOOK THE LUGE!
omg.. its fun lar.
i must admit the skyride at first
was a lil freaky.. but aft that..
its quite fun! hahaha
wanted to play again!
cos it was a little too short..
Dinner at marche.
i must say.. its fun.. i love playing in the sea.
as long as the sea level is not higher than me lol
ok thats abt all.
i am blogging at work actually
this is me officially telling myself that i am done with work
(although i have tonnes of work piling up)
i just can't be bothered anymore.
at least for now.
tmr then i shall deal with the fucked up stress.
and shit full of jobs.
peace out.
| The.Goodbye. 2/18/2009 04:12:00 PM |
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Sunday, February 15, 2009
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i think blogging aft clubbing has become a ritual.
i really feel like puking. but i refuse to.
i feel so giddy.
like gidddy u know?
lol
the white party was. hmmm..
really saw the last person i want to see there
and the last person i want to have a 'hug' there.
spoiler.
MAJOR.
i am so omfg slpy.
i tink i shld stop toking shit and
go to bed cos i need to wake up in a few hrs time
and i haven pack my bag.
and i haven cook.
omg....................
and lastly.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MISS BEAUTIFUL NG!
LATER we are gona rock SENTOSA
...
i duno how..
mayb by throwing rocks at the beach?
lol
SHUT UP [X]!!!!!!!!!!
nite! :)
| The.Goodbye. 2/15/2009 04:35:00 AM |
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Thursday, February 12, 2009
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YAY im finally in blogger
aaft numerioua ateotm to log in
i finall succeeed!
i just want o say a nbit drbj'1`[nota t all not drunk!
oh my
there i blogged!
| The.Goodbye. 2/12/2009 03:20:00 AM |
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Wednesday, February 11, 2009
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Random.
Just felt like blogging.
having sore throat.
and later going to mambo with
syl,flo,meilian,calista,meimei,pearly NG CHABOH, jaime
i think abt all lar.. lol
but my throat is kinda killing me.
and....
I AM GOING TO WATCH 'WHAT THE BUTLER SAW!"
haha its a play! Hooray!
with Meilian,Pearly and Vikki. hehs
so cold its raining like Phwar~
i feel my skin is so dry.
i feel so tired ..
i got so much phlegm.
i am so glad i got in touch with my
Primary school friend Whom i met at PLAY!
haha who would have tot aft 12years. lol
alright...
thats abt all.
kinda had enough.
just think that words are nothing.
esp my words.
| The.Goodbye. 2/11/2009 05:25:00 PM |
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Friday, February 06, 2009
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i realised how much i hate u.
like this [---------------------------------X100000000000000000] much
what happen?
what happen?
how did this happen.
u were once my best fren
and now when i see u, all that come to my mind is all the lies u said.
t make urself fel bvetter abt yoersefl!
hruray for u!
3 ceheeers!
and seriously why are u stilin raeding my blogge?
why? dun raeed lar. just conscentrate on trynig hard to pelase
that super NIKCe slang tink she danm skniny white piecce of paper.
nYES i M fucked uo asehole! and u konw whhy?cos i knowe u feel like
KNN aft this! WAHHHHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
GWAd no wonder i got so much karm afurom u lar!
play was arlight
prolly cos me n pearly had quite lot ot dirnk
i don;t even rem how many drinskwe had
i only know i am hugnry now!
lateer on leave. hoooray!
2 days srtraignt clubing drnking so muhc.
old liaro lar!
and i saw my PRIMARY school friend again!
lol its like aft 10ears then we realiese we ware
both gay. LOL
tmmr go collec the ticks i won from class95
to a playy` and aft that the flyer!
and i think.. and i duno why me and pearly bought the ticks
to the duno what white... party on Vday...
and we got training.. on that day.........
and the next day mornign stil got trainging,
.....-_-
I AM HUNGRY LAR!!!!!!!!!!!!
WHY WHY WHY?
i dun understand why.
why u still like this.
ur beter offf u know,,,,,
like son much better off.
please rem that.
| The.Goodbye. 2/06/2009 04:23:00 AM |
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