Tuesday, March 31, 2009

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Nice to hang out


| The.Goodbye. 3/31/2009 02:19:00 AM |

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Thursday, March 26, 2009

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I realised....


| The.Goodbye. 3/26/2009 12:53:00 PM |

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OMG


| The.Goodbye. 3/26/2009 04:11:00 AM |

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Thursday, March 19, 2009

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OMG ...

i am so tired..
so Slpy
so tired
so Slpy..

GAWD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the recent activities is super enjoyable
and at the same time .. TIRING!!!!!!
oh my..

i need plenty of rest!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Next week is the MR500 race
tot i wun make it as my attendance
haven beeeeeen consistent.
but well i'm glad i did.

Super excited.
Wooo~!
shiokkkkkka
i really need to rest well and right
hope.. the race wun be in the freakkking Early morning.
ahhhhh!!

alright my GOAL!l for DB is to work hard improve
and get in the line up for ALL THE RACES!
yah i know greedy.. lol
but i will try my BEST!
JIAYOU MAN!!!!!!!!!!!! WOO HOOO~! :)

GOOD news has been rolling in!
and omg... happy happy happy!
excited!... woo~
hahaha

yesterday when i got home,
my dear bro..
was at here.
and he was a fucking Rude irritating idiot.(yes thats what i called him in his face)
he..
asked me why i dun take off my slippers when i go DB..
got the tanlines...... like I DUNO HOW MANY FUCKING TIMES LAR!
10? 20 times?
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i know its ugly lar fuck.
no need to say it out of his mouth i also know wtf he meant.
KNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
but its irritating.. cos i alrdy know i am ugly.LOL
u know how irritating isit?
u know not? SEBEI IRRITATING
then i shouted at his face u fucking RUDE irritating idiot.
really man. like a bloody irritating ringing sound at my ear.
But oh well, then my sis in law just ask my bro to shhhh.
reallllly irritating.LOL
then we laughed abt the whole thing.
interesting ah.
thats one thing i am ok with that stupid bro of mine.
if he is being irritating.. and i retaliate back.
he wun be down there wanting to start a quarrel
or go complain to my sis in law or my parents.
well he knows he is the one who started it. and he prolly
deserve it man my sis in law also say he deserve it LOL
say if he cannot be shoot then he better keep quiet or
behave himself.. lol... funny lar they 2.

weird that i actually blogged abt my bro..
well cos he moved out to his new house on Sat.. alrdy
soooo kinda MISS HIM LAR... and his stupid nonsense
hahaha oh my.. hahaha not use to it still. lol

OK LAR!
I LOVE YOU GUYS OK!
my mum, bro SIL,
I also love The GANG!
yes now i am pretty sure we learn alot more!
and really SEE alot more!
definitely hell lot closer!

without a doubt i also love the rest!
FRIENDS in MY FBs.. altho some i have no idea who they are..
LOL and my DB TEAM MATES LAR!...
woooot!
woot!
woot!

* CB type until like so hyper and happening
i am sebei slpy lar.
lol
sooo tired with the recent outings..
but well i do feeeeel more awake alrdy.
HA.....

back to WORK AH!

Last Qns..
ppl what are ur goals?
i have mine.
lets share, encourage and work towards it.

to me without goals.encouragement.detemination.
i'm not living a life right.
GOALS AH LETS GOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

V and C
u guys were right.
sorry i didn't listen
and wasted my time defending
and ur(s) time of listening and understanding.

nvm lar we learn from mistakes. :)
take it in STRIDE!!


| The.Goodbye. 3/19/2009 10:54:00 AM |

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Tuesday, March 17, 2009

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OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!

today i left my house
without charging my iphone!!!!!
and i forgot to bring the wire to CHARGE!!

and the phone only has abt 20% of batt life left.

i really tot that it will die on me!

so i adjust the brightness of the screen to the lowest.
and the volume to the lowest and off
the vibration mode.

and to my Surprise!
it actually lasted me throughout the whole day
plus i can use listen to music till i'm home!

well i know mainly is cos i didn't play games lar!
hahahaha
oh well
i'm happy and glad!!!!!

and aft tmr i will be on leave for 1 day!
wooo hoooo!
gona have a fun filled day!

slpy leh.
lol.
still gotta work later..
got responsbilities to tend to.
ARGH!!!!!!!
sucks really stressed up at work....

but well...
i keep telling myself.
at least i have a job.
i have a goal
and i am working towards it!
JIAYOU AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!


| The.Goodbye. 3/17/2009 02:39:00 AM |

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Sunday, March 15, 2009

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What are friends?

Some are definitely worth cherishing

but some are jus jokes being played on ppl.

i got 2 of them

Nvr appreciative
and taken for granted.


| The.Goodbye. 3/15/2009 07:38:00 PM |

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WHY?
WHY?
WHY?

What a nerve you got to even ask that.

Friends that are not even close but can use their money
so friends that are close.. what? you gona share their inheritance?

I'm not a free ride pass home.
Cab rides are not free
i actually have to pay the uncle money.

IT FUCKING DISGUST ME.
and seriously.
why do i have to buy drink for ur ex-gf?
buy for u not enough?
have to buy for ur ex?
an ex that i dun even like.
u think my money fall from the sky?

Doesn't mean i dun comment i am fine
doesn't mean i am ok to let u take advantage
it just mean i dun want to make everything a big deal.
it means i am matured enough to give u respect
as long as the line is not crossed

But when the line is crossed.
don't expect me to be nice
don't expect me to not be fucking sarcastic
don't expect me to still be ok with everything.
don't expect me to do nothing about it.

ever since that WATCH WHAT YOU SAID
incident i have been 'ren-ing'
i tried to stand on your fucking side
to understand why u are like that.
and thus i am still always there
i am trying my best to let everything i am unhappy
about go away, seeing u like this doesn't make me feel good
and it sure doesn't make anyone of us feel good either

but u know what make me most disgusted?
you pretended nothing was wrong.
u nvr mentioned a single word that nite at
play or the car ride. u NVR SAY anything AND act like everything
was OK. when u say this kind of thing to my Bro's gf
have u ever wondered what makes her say that?
HAVE U EVER BOTHERED TO ASK?
YOU JUST ASSUMED ITS ALL HER FAULT RIGHT?

Nvm all these i REN.
i really REN, honestly we all know what shoes you are in
and we are always here and have always been
but u are the one who is rejecting us cos of her
The conversation i had with u at changi beach
really make me feel like shit.
what u said... is as good as stabbing a knife
into the friendships cos of a girl.
You think what? i got no fucking feelings?

if u ask me what started all these?
That. just that i choose to keep quiet about it.
dun want to make a big deal
and i told flo, she knew but she also
nvr make a big deal about it.
and now u say don't forget how all these started.
Who is the one who makes a big deal out of everything?
WHO IS THE ONE WHO CANNOT BE COMMENTED?
who is the one that is soo perfect and so high up on
the pedestal that cannot be commented at all.

2 of you got the nerve to say ppl blog shit but look at you 2
what the hell did u 2 do? aren't u the same?
dun set double standards. if you want to say ppl then dun do it.
and if you want to do it, do it openly don't hide one fucking corner and
blog. if we are bad at least we did it right infront, what makes the
both of u? blogging behind our backs and talk like you 2
are like moral centre of the earth, is just simply CRUDE AND RUDE.
and seriously dun bring out the word Childish, dun make a fool out
of yourself.

You NVR think that you are the bad person do u?
you always just think that your the victim don't u?
when ppl are not saying things ur way you take it as
the WHOLE WORLD IS AGAINST U DON'T YOU?
the convo of you and flo FUCKING PISSED ME OFF AGAIN!
Why the need to be so crude?
you talk like the whole gang is BEGGING YOU TO COME BACK AS OUR FRIEND
you talked like we just did something that killed your entire family
and that u can nvr look past or fogive/forget abt it.
you go and fucking read what you type.
you sound like some insane mad lovesick 2 face creep
one hand appear to me like fucking fine
the other hand talk until like that.
DISGUSTING.
u know what i feel?
i feel that u backstab me and the entire friendships

All those talks like you are the one trying to be tolerant towards us
Does your brain works 2 way or just one way?
you know how to judge and say ppl.
what u say may be true.
things that you say just contradict your actions
in one post you shoot everyone abt what the fuck u are not happy about
but in that same fucking post you are doing EVERYTHING that u
actually accused us about.

and why sound so shocked that i called u and scold u?
want to ask me why.. then ask me yourself
u need to hide behind that person?
and ask someone else?
and why?
seriously why not?
what u still expect me to stand by your side
when u throw friendships away JUST LIKE THAT?
and when you said this?

GO AND BE DISAPPOINTED ALL YOU WANT.
IM GLAD ITS ALL OVER.
DUN EVER FORGET HOW ALL THESE STARTED.

did u expect me to call u and THANK YOU FOR YOUR CRUDENESS?
Don't forget this world ur currently living in only has yourself
don't have any of us.
and i am not even sure if that person is in it
but i am pretty sure its a world that is not right

and like what you told me
i am too chin chai.. to the ppl ard me
everything also ok.. so everyone step over me
and u told me not to.
and yeah i heed-ed your advice
U and her no. 1 the list.
of not letting ppl get advantage.
U i'm always here for u
listen to you, listen to u even when ur dissing everyone.
stood by u and now this shits.
and that person... thinks all the cab uncles what? my father?
its not abt the money... let me stress
its abt the attitude
What kind of person are you?
to have the nerve to nvr once paid for
the cabfare if you were dropped off first?
and now even more crude, ppl not even close to.

Don't blame ppl shooting you
if among the whole gang only one person dun like you,
then maybe its that one person's own problem
but the ENTIRE gang thinks that...
can't be the entire gang has problem

But prolly to u 2
its us who has the problems

don't give me the i duno how to approach
them excuse
dun come out with excuse and thinks we buy it
we are not brainless ppl.
Dun say a whole lot of crap and pretend to
be innocent and that those words are harmless
and that it was a fit of anger
how many times must this happen
we are supposed to be friends
NOT YOUR VENTING PUNCHING BAG
don't insult us with your excuses.

but whatever it is.
like what you said
don't forget how all these started.









| The.Goodbye. 3/15/2009 03:10:00 PM |

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Friday, March 13, 2009

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the ritual.

i got ticks to lah! madi gras
but i really dun feel like going.

its the same thing.
today Double O and zouk

hmmm
quite a screw up day for pratically almost everyone.
i guess.
what a day.

the loser white piece of paper
all the shits i've heard.
seriously say it to my face next time
if u got the guts.
grow up for goodness sake
no guts then shut the hell up.


| The.Goodbye. 3/13/2009 03:46:00 AM |

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Monday, March 09, 2009

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Alrite back.. finally.

welllll
went to sat's training..
thunder and lightning
was pouring like mad and
we couldn't row until ard 5pm

we only left with an hr of training.
and if anyone tot that it was gona be
a really easy and relax one..


WE ARE ALL WRONG!!
when we got on the boat...
Coach said since there is only 1 hour left
we should do a warm up of 1k...
and a 10km non stop row...
and every 2k we have to do hard 10 for every 200m interval..

man.... i can only say...
SHIT AT FIRST!
and seriously and honestly
aft the 2 or 3km.. i really felt like giving up..
damn tired and my shoulder really had this piercing pain.
BUT!
i keep telling myself to endure!
MIND OVER BODY!!!!
and well being a believer in that.
i guess it kinda worked.
and it worked pretty well
by the time we reach the 6- 7 km
i was actually pretty energetic and excited
to finish up the 10km..
and slowly feeling the satisfaction!

and WOW IT FELT SO GOD DAMN GOOD MAN!!
A cheer for the entire rowers!

even tho' i have blisters and really bad aches..
and my right hand ( middle and ring finger) actually..
strained.. haha and is aching.. grab the paddle too hard!
i tell u man... its WORTH IT!
how i miss this kind of feeling.
knowing that i push my body further
it has nvr felt better! :)

but i missed sunday's training..
woke up feeling damn giddy and have quite bad neck ache.
but i joined them at lunch and to yong's place
for MJ.. and then dinner again.
hahahs seems like forever since i met them
altho' i promised to meet flo they all during the weekend.
sorry man... i meet u guys reallll soon!

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for the past weeks
been meeting up quite abit with jess aka QAD...
working late..... clubbing....
having seriously not enough slp
and drinking alil way too much. lol
been smoking alil too much too i guess.
and man i love that better than cig stuffffffffff..
i want more..lol

i want to start back my routine of weights/crutches/hopefully runs.
race is coming up.. tho' i mite nt make it most prob.. cos my attendance
is pretty bad... i need to focus..
but the thing is i am so tired and piss off aft work
i just want to relax and have FUN!

oh well...

and a note,
seriously...
this is really getting sick.
not everyone do things with an agenda
not everyone is like u(s)
if your so free to meddle and comment
why don't u do some good deed?
like maybe stop thinking u(s) are on the top.
or that u(s) are some big fuck.
or get a grip of urself(s) for goodness sake.
Sorry but its childish..
its so childish.. if ur 16 or even younger like primary school
i will understand the whole 'if i am not friends with her,
u can't be either' grow up for goodness sake.

and honestly u are my karma,
and i tink she is ur karma,
she who tinks her jokes are funny,
she who thinks her slang is cool,
she who thinks everyone likes her,
she who think she is better than everyone,
she who tinks that everyone is stupid enough to nt know how fake she is

a quote abt her
"seeing her once is enough"

not saying i am one fucking good soul
cos i know i am not.
i'm a screw up piece of nothing.
with a time bomb strap to my brain.

and no matter how bad i am
i always say to myself.
thank god i am not like u.

i believe u have something good.
but no matter how good u are.
if ur insides and beliefs are rotten
u will be.

and seriously.....
grow up with the making fun.
what kind of character does a person
who needs to bring other ppl down to
make them feel good abt themselves..
proved?
to me and many others.
childish. and seriously cheap thrill.

- mind your own business -


| The.Goodbye. 3/09/2009 02:15:00 AM |

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Friday, March 06, 2009

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wwooooo play 3with syl, pearly cali, jessss, reb...
?
WZOOT!!

cig is nothing comparede to that man
WOOOOOOOO!

thee feeling is so diff.. mannnnnnn
i loveeeeee it!!!!!!!

qing.a.d. jessssssssssssss
don't don't tok to me cos of that lar lol
its nothing ayee?

woooooo

i dno whars goinnn on
i am damn thirsty........rhe afre effect,,,,,,wwwwwwwwooooooooooooooooooooo
omf i am so lpt.......

amd u know whar
i fuckINg hate U..

I Rreallt do..
and u totallt deserve her
she is just like u Fake!
fucikinv fake
2 drama mama
oh oh forgot she is ' OMG SO DAMN SKINNY"
skinny like a white piece of paper and
same goes for the skin colour.
like white chicken.
cheena wayang shit.
LOSER!

i really hope you think your damn fucking cool
that will be the biggest joke ever... haha

and to u lastly.
you totally deserve her.
you really really deserve her.
LIKE TOTALLLLLY MAN
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAA


| The.Goodbye. 3/06/2009 04:02:00 AM |

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Thursday, March 05, 2009

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Fuck this really fuck this, the only thing that is making me better is using the stupid iphone to blog this bloody entry.

I really feel like I had enough.... Really enough
Madness I duno how much longer can I take it.
This job has totally break me, make my temper reach to a point where I have never seen bfore..

I might be going crazy soon
Maybe aft this week things mite turn out slightly better?
Cos now my AD is on leave 1 week from this week Mon to this free so he will only be back on Monday n hopefully I dun have to do his shits


| The.Goodbye. 3/05/2009 07:16:00 PM |

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